Bir zamanlar, kimilerine g\u00f6re \u00e7ok uzak, bana sorarsan\u0131z hi\u00e7 de \u00f6yle uzak olmayan bir memlekette g\u00fczel mi g\u00fczel, kara ya\u011f\u0131z bir delikanl\u0131 ya\u015farm\u0131\u015f. Delikanl\u0131n\u0131n dul anas\u0131, iki k\u0131z karde\u015fi ve her \u015feyden \u00e7ok sevdi\u011fi at\u0131 d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda kimi kimsesi yokmu\u015f. Delikanl\u0131 \u00f6yle yak\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131ym\u0131\u015f ki \u00f6n\u00fcnden ge\u00e7ti\u011fi evlerin e\u015fikleri kalabal\u0131kla\u015f\u0131r, pencerelerinde g\u00f6lgeler \u00e7o\u011fal\u0131rm\u0131\u015f. At bir evin \u00f6n\u00fcnde \u015faha m\u0131 kalkm\u0131\u015f, uzun uzun ki\u015fnemi\u015f mi, ard\u0131ndaki san\u0131rm\u0131\u015f ki delikanl\u0131n\u0131n diyemedi\u011fini at\u0131 der, yapamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 at yapar, kendisine seslenirmi\u015f. Velhas\u0131l zarif g\u00f6vdesiyle ve aln\u0131ndaki beyaz \u00e7uhas\u0131yla at delikanl\u0131dan, delikanl\u0131 attan g\u00fczel ve h\u0131zl\u0131; erkekler ata, kad\u0131nlar k\u0131zlar delikanl\u0131ya bakar bakar i\u00e7 \u00e7ekerlermi\u015f. Bunca talibi olunca da d\u00f6n\u00fcp kimselere bakmazm\u0131\u015f delikanl\u0131. Hatt\u0131 zat\u0131nda evine odun ta\u015f\u0131maktan, t\u0131mar etti\u011fi at\u0131n\u0131n s\u0131rt\u0131na binip r\u00fczg\u00e2ra kar\u015f\u0131 yar\u0131\u015fmaktan ve ormandaki av\u0131ndan ba\u015fka bir \u015fey de bilmezmi\u015f.
\nAma delikanl\u0131 bu \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011fe ve ormanda avlanmak i\u00e7in pusuda bekleyip vah\u015fi hayvanlarla yar\u0131\u015fa girmeye \u00f6yle al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f ki memleketine neredeyse hi\u00e7 u\u011framaz olmu\u015f, u\u011frad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndaysa yakalad\u0131\u011f\u0131 av\u0131, toplad\u0131\u011f\u0131 odunlar\u0131 evin \u00f6n\u00fcne b\u0131rak\u0131r, orman\u0131na geri d\u00f6nermi\u015f. Delikanl\u0131n\u0131n anas\u0131 ne yapaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u015fa\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f. O\u011flunu geceleri kap\u0131da yakalam\u0131\u015f, \u201cGel, s\u0131cak yata\u011f\u0131nda yat\u0131ver, insan i\u00e7ine kar\u0131\u015f,\u201d diye yalvar\u0131p yakarm\u0131\u015f ama onu bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc ikna edememi\u015f. Sonunda bakm\u0131\u015f olacak gibi de\u011fil, \u00e7areyi memleketin \u00e2liminin kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7almakta bulmu\u015f.
\nG\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f ge\u00e7irmi\u015f, ak sakall\u0131 \u00e2lim kad\u0131n\u0131 dinledikten sonra demi\u015f ki: \u201c\u0130nsan dedi\u011fin zay\u0131f bir mahl\u00fbkatt\u0131r. Hele erkek daha da zay\u0131ft\u0131r. Bir kad\u0131na dokunmayag\u00f6rs\u00fcn, yumu\u015fay\u0131p evcille\u015fir hemen. Senin o\u011flunun orman\u0131 b\u0131rakmas\u0131n\u0131n tek yolu, bir kad\u0131n\u0131n tenine dokunmas\u0131ndan ge\u00e7er.\u201d
\nDelikanl\u0131n\u0131n anas\u0131 evine d\u00f6ner d\u00f6nmez konuyu kap\u0131 kom\u015fusuna a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f. \u201cEvlendirelim o zaman. Bak, \u00e7evrede onca k\u0131z var yolunu g\u00f6zleyen,\u201d demi\u015f kom\u015fu kad\u0131n. \u201c\u0130yi de, ben bunu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmedim mi san\u0131yorsun. Asl\u0131nda \u00e2limin bu s\u00f6yledi\u011fini ben de ak\u0131l etmi\u015ftim,\u201d diye cevap vermi\u015f dertli ana. \u201cAma y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc bana bile g\u00f6stermiyor ki. Hem son halini bir g\u00f6rsen… Sa\u00e7 ba\u015f uzam\u0131\u015f, tam bir da\u011f adam\u0131na d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f. G\u00fcnd\u00fcz g\u00f6z\u00fcyle g\u00f6ren hangi k\u0131z varmak ister ki ona?\u201d
\nZaten \u00f6teden beri delikanl\u0131ya tutkun, bu y\u00fczden ikide bir kom\u015fu kad\u0131na misafirli\u011fe gelen Dilnaz, tam o s\u0131rada kap\u0131 \u00f6n\u00fcnde iki kad\u0131n\u0131n konu\u015fmalar\u0131n\u0131 dinliyormu\u015f. Dilnaz daha evlendi\u011fi g\u00fcn\u00fcn haftas\u0131nda dul kalm\u0131\u015f, evi bark\u0131 olan, g\u00fczel ve i\u015ftah\u0131 yerinde, gencecik, g\u00fczel bir kad\u0131nm\u0131\u015f. Gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n hemen evine d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f, at arabas\u0131n\u0131 haz\u0131rlatm\u0131\u015f yard\u0131mc\u0131lar\u0131na, yola koyulmu\u015f. Evleri geride b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015f, bucaklar\u0131 ge\u00e7mi\u015f, tepeleri a\u015fm\u0131\u015f, derken o\u011flan\u0131n mesken tuttu\u011fu orman\u0131n giri\u015findeki \u0131rma\u011fa varm\u0131\u015f. Yorgun ve terliymi\u015f Dilnaz.
\nG\u00fcnlerdir suya inen bir ceylan\u0131n pe\u015findeki delikanl\u0131 ise o s\u0131rada \u0131rma\u011fa do\u011fru geliyormu\u015f. A\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131n alt\u0131nda girip pusuya yatacakm\u0131\u015f. Ama bir de bakm\u0131\u015f ki sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 suya e\u011fmi\u015f bir salk\u0131m s\u00f6\u011f\u00fcd\u00fcn alt\u0131ndan bir kad\u0131n \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f, incecik, \u015feffaf i\u00e7li\u011fiyle \u0131rma\u011fa do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcyor. Hayat\u0131nda ilk kez bir kad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131plak g\u00f6r\u00fcyormu\u015f, hayat\u0131nda ilk kez \u00e7\u0131plakl\u0131\u011f\u0131n bu kadar g\u00fczel olabilece\u011fini fark ediyormu\u015f. Delikanl\u0131 pe\u015fine d\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fc ceylan\u0131, avlanmay\u0131 unutmu\u015f, kad\u0131n seyre dalm\u0131\u015f.
\nDilnaz g\u00fczel g\u00fczel serinlemi\u015f, terinden ar\u0131nm\u0131\u015f, a\u011fac\u0131n alt\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fcyormu\u015f ki ne g\u00f6rs\u00fcn; sa\u00e7lar\u0131 belinde, sakal\u0131 d\u00f6\u015f\u00fcnde bir da\u011fl\u0131 geliyor. \u201cBu o mu?\u201d demi\u015f kendi kendine. Bu \u00fcst\u00fc ba\u015f\u0131 peri\u015fan ve y\u0131rt\u0131k p\u0131rt\u0131k, uzun t\u0131rnaklar\u0131 pislik i\u00e7indeki da\u011fl\u0131 o g\u00fczel delikanl\u0131 m\u0131? E\u015fyas\u0131na ve arabas\u0131na gidece\u011fine yeniden \u0131rma\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7ine girmi\u015f.
\nDelikanl\u0131 ba\u011f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f: \u201cNeden ka\u00e7ars\u0131n benden? \u00c7\u0131k d\u0131\u015far\u0131ya da bir kez daha endam\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6reyim,\u201d demi\u015f.
\n\u201cOlmaz,\u201d diye ba\u011f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f Dilnaz. \u201cSa\u00e7lar\u0131n f\u0131r\u00e7a gibi, sakal\u0131n d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm. Bak \u00fcst\u00fcne ba\u015f\u0131na, pare pare, hayvan kan\u0131 i\u00e7inde. Sen t\u0131rnaklar\u0131n\u0131, sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131, sakal\u0131n\u0131 kesmeden, y\u0131kan\u0131p temizlenmeden \u00e7\u0131kmam kar\u015f\u0131na.\u201d Delikanl\u0131 yalvarm\u0131\u015f, yakarm\u0131\u015f ama nafile, kad\u0131n Nuh diyor peygamber demiyormu\u015f. Bakm\u0131\u015f olacak gibi de\u011fil, at\u0131na binmi\u015f, en yak\u0131n bucaktaki hamama girmi\u015f, kanl\u0131 av elbiselerini atm\u0131\u015f \u00fczerinden, sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 sakal\u0131n\u0131 kesmi\u015f, aklan\u0131p paklan\u0131p \u0131rma\u011fa geri d\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f. D\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f ki kad\u0131n o \u015feffaf i\u00e7li\u011fiyle, tatl\u0131 k\u0131vr\u0131mlar\u0131yla \u0131rma\u011f\u0131n kenar\u0131nda oturmaya devam ediyor. Kad\u0131n onu g\u00f6r\u00fcr g\u00f6rmez tatl\u0131 tatl\u0131 g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemi\u015f, utanga\u00e7\u00e7a g\u00f6zlerini yere indirmi\u015f. Delikanl\u0131 tam at\u0131ndan inip heyecanla ona do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcrken kad\u0131n hemen yan\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131ndaki bir abayla \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6rtm\u00fc\u015f. \u201cBurada olmaz,\u201d diye ba\u011f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f. \u201cBen evime gidiyorum. Beni g\u00f6rmek istersen, oraya gelirsin!\u201d Evinin yolunu tarif etmi\u015f delikanl\u0131ya, sonra da \u201c\u015eimdi y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00f6n, giyinece\u011fim!\u201d demi\u015f.
\nDelikanl\u0131 \u00f6fkelenmi\u015f, can\u0131n cehenneme diyerek at\u0131na atlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 gibi yine orman\u0131n derinliklerine dalm\u0131\u015f. Ama akl\u0131 da kad\u0131nda kalm\u0131\u015f. G\u00fczeller g\u00fczeli bir ceylan m\u0131 \u00e7\u0131k\u0131yor kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na, g\u00f6rm\u00fcyor, ceylana g\u00f6z koymu\u015f bir aslan\u0131n k\u00fckremesini mi duyuyor, h\u0131rslan\u0131p aslana do\u011frultmuyormu\u015f okunu. Sonunda delikanl\u0131 bakm\u0131\u015f unutam\u0131yor kad\u0131n\u0131, at\u0131na binip yola koyulmu\u015f.
\nEvden i\u015ftah a\u00e7\u0131c\u0131 kokular, ba\u015f d\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc bu\u011fular y\u00fckseliyormu\u015f. \u0130\u00e7eri girmi\u015f delikanl\u0131, g\u00fczel pi\u015fmi\u015f soslu etlerden, tad\u0131na doyum olmaz \u015faraplardan tatm\u0131\u015f. Derken Dilnaz ona elini uzatm\u0131\u015f, delikanl\u0131 o g\u00fcne kadarki en k\u0131\u015fk\u0131rt\u0131c\u0131 av\u0131ndan daha k\u0131\u015fk\u0131rt\u0131c\u0131, at\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerinden u\u00e7arken duydu\u011fu o hazdan daha b\u00fcy\u00fck haz veren kad\u0131n\u0131 ke\u015ffetmi\u015f. Sanm\u0131\u015f ki, hep bir avdan ba\u015fka bir ava ko\u015fu\u015fu kad\u0131na vard\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu an i\u00e7inmi\u015f. \u015eahlanm\u0131\u015f, co\u015fmu\u015f, b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc kad\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6vdesine ak\u0131tm\u0131\u015f. Ertesi g\u00fcn yeniden orman\u0131na d\u00f6necekmi\u015f ki kad\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn di\u015fili\u011fi, b\u00fct\u00fcn cilvesiyle yeniden a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f kendini ona. Delikanl\u0131 unutmu\u015f orman\u0131, av sevdas\u0131n\u0131, vah\u015fi hayvanlarla yar\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131. Ne o evden \u00e7\u0131kmak istemi\u015f bir daha ne de d\u00f6rt g\u00f6zle tavlada kendisini bekleyen at\u0131na el s\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f. Hep Dilnaz\u2019\u0131n dizinin dibinde, onun g\u00fczel yemekleriyle, onun yata\u011f\u0131nda k\u00e2h g\u00fc\u00e7lenmi\u015f k\u00e2h takatten d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f; tek yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015fey arada bir d\u0131\u015far\u0131ya \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p \u00e7ar\u015f\u0131da oyalanmak, hemen eve d\u00f6n\u00fcp yeniden sevdi\u011finin koynuna girmekmi\u015f. \u00d6yle ki onun bu tutkusu, hi\u00e7bir i\u015fe el atmamas\u0131 gen\u00e7 kad\u0131n\u0131 bile usand\u0131rm\u0131\u015f. Dilnaz yava\u015f yava\u015f onun bu miskinli\u011fine s\u00f6ylenmeye, uzaktan uza\u011fa o\u011flunu izleyen annesi ise o\u011flu i\u00e7in korkmaya ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f. Zaten bakir bir erke\u011fin bakire bir k\u0131zla ancak bir d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn \u015f\u00f6leniyle birbirlerine kavu\u015fabildi\u011fi memleketlerinde, b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00e2detleri yerle bir etmi\u015f, herkesin dilinde dolanan bu ili\u015fkiye son vermek isteyen anne, yeniden \u00e2limin huzuruna \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f.
\n\u201cBiliyorum,\u201d demi\u015f \u00e2lim. \u201cDedim ya, erkek zay\u0131ft\u0131r, zay\u0131fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 da dokundu\u011funa tutkusundand\u0131r. Onun ba\u015fka kad\u0131nlar, ba\u015fka hayatlar g\u00f6rmesi gerekir ki bu tutkusunu tek bir kad\u0131ndan de\u011fil de benli\u011finden ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6\u011frensin. O\u011flunun her \u015feyden \u00f6nce eski avc\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yeniden hat\u0131rlamas\u0131 gerekiyor. Orman\u0131n di\u011fer ucundaki \u015fehirde \u00e2detleri bizimkinden farkl\u0131, ne\u015fesi ve kad\u0131n\u0131 bol insanlar ya\u015far. G\u00f6nder o\u011flunu orman\u0131n di\u011fer ucuna, g\u00f6receksin, hem avc\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ke\u015ffedecek hem de \u015fehirde ba\u015fka kad\u0131nlar tan\u0131yacakt\u0131r.\u201d
\n\u201c\u0130yi de,\u201d demi\u015f kad\u0131n, \u201co \u00e7ok sevdi\u011fi at\u0131na bile binmezken oraya nas\u0131l g\u00f6nderirim o\u011flan\u0131?\u201d
\n\u201cEe, bu da siz kad\u0131nlar\u0131n mahareti olsun,\u201d demi\u015f \u00e2lim. \u201cO\u011flun madem iyi bir avc\u0131… S\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc etti\u011fim memlekette av hayvanlar\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fk\u00fcn insanlar ya\u015far, ikna et o\u011flan\u0131, hem en iyi bildi\u011fi i\u015f olan avc\u0131l\u0131\u011fa d\u00f6ns\u00fcn hem de bu av\u0131ndan kurtulmay\u0131 \u00f6\u011frensin.\u201d
\nKad\u0131n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f, ta\u015f\u0131nm\u0131\u015f, bu i\u015fi \u00e7\u00f6zse \u00e7\u00f6zse yine Dilnaz \u00e7\u00f6zer diyerek o\u011flunun \u00e7ar\u015f\u0131da avare avare dola\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir g\u00fcn Dilnaz\u2019\u0131n kap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7alm\u0131\u015f.
\n\u201cBak, sen b\u00f6yle tembelle\u015fmi\u015f, ete\u011finin dibinden ayr\u0131lmayan bir erkekten memnun musun?\u201d demi\u015f gen\u00e7 kad\u0131na. \u201cYok, benim sevdi\u011fim o at\u0131ndan inmeyen, ge\u00e7ti\u011fi kap\u0131lar\u0131n \u00f6n\u00fcnde y\u00fcrekleri titreten delikanl\u0131yd\u0131,\u201d demi\u015f Dilnaz. \u201cO zaman ikna et onu. Gurbete \u00e7\u0131ks\u0131n, orman\u0131n di\u011fer ucunda avlans\u0131n ama bu kez b\u00fcy\u00fck \u015fehirde av\u0131n\u0131 paraya \u00e7evirmeyi \u00f6\u011frensin. B\u0131rak, biraz ter d\u00f6k\u00fcp m\u00fccadele etsin, ger\u00e7ek erkek olup geri d\u00f6ns\u00fcn!\u201d
\nDilnaz d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f ta\u015f\u0131nm\u0131\u015f, bakm\u0131\u015f ba\u015fka \u00e7\u0131kar yolu yok, ikna etmi\u015f delikanl\u0131y\u0131. Delikanl\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f \u00f6nce ama madem sevdi\u011fi kad\u0131n \u0131srarl\u0131, \u00fcstelik \u00e7oktan beri o eski sevecenli\u011fini de yitirmi\u015f, binip at\u0131na yola koyulmu\u015f. Yeniden sahibine kavu\u015fan at \u00f6nce serin yellerin alt\u0131ndan, g\u00fczel kokular\u0131n aras\u0131ndan ge\u00e7irmi\u015f onu, ard\u0131ndan r\u00fczg\u00e2ra kar\u015f\u0131 yar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f, tepeleri a\u015fm\u0131\u015f, nehirlerden y\u00fczerek ge\u00e7mi\u015f. Me\u011fer ne de g\u00fczelmi\u015f bir dedi\u011fini iki etmeyen at\u0131n\u0131n s\u0131rt\u0131nda u\u00e7mak, ne de ba\u015f d\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcym\u00fc\u015f orman\u0131n saf kokusunu i\u00e7ine \u00e7ekmek, ne de k\u0131\u015fk\u0131rt\u0131c\u0131ym\u0131\u015f ceylanlar\u0131n seki\u015fini, ay\u0131lar\u0131n homurtular\u0131n\u0131, aslanlar\u0131n \u2013gergin ve z\u0131pk\u0131n\u2013 avlar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fczerine atlay\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 izlemek… B\u00f6ylece ormanda yeniden o eski hayat\u0131n\u0131 ke\u015ffetmi\u015f. Ama ak\u015fam olup da hava serinledi\u011finde ve g\u00f6k karanl\u0131k \u00f6rt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc \u00fczerine \u00f6rtt\u00fc\u011f\u00fcnde s\u0131cak ve yumu\u015fak yata\u011f\u0131n\u0131, Dilnaz\u2019\u0131n kokusunu \u00f6zlemi\u015f. Heyhat, geri d\u00f6nemezmi\u015f ki. B\u00f6yle kalbi k\u0131r\u0131k, yapayaln\u0131z, orman\u0131n di\u011fer yan\u0131ndaki \u015fehre do\u011fru yola koyulmu\u015f.
\nYe\u015fili bol, havas\u0131 yumu\u015fak zengin bir \u015fehirmi\u015f buras\u0131. G\u00fczel kad\u0131nlar, gen\u00e7 erkeklerle rahat ve teklifsizce el ele tutu\u015fup y\u00fcr\u00fcyor, durup durup kokla\u015f\u0131yorlarm\u0131\u015f. Geldi\u011fi memleketten ne kadar da farkl\u0131, nas\u0131l da i\u00e7 i\u00e7eymi\u015f a\u015fk ve hayat. Bir evin bah\u00e7esinde g\u00fczel mi g\u00fczel, Dilnaz\u2019a benzeyen bir kad\u0131n dikkatini \u00e7ekmi\u015f. Kad\u0131n delikanl\u0131ya, delikanl\u0131 kad\u0131na bakm\u0131\u015f ama kad\u0131n eyerindeki kanl\u0131 ceylanlar\u0131 fark etti\u011finde y\u00fcz \u00e7evirmi\u015f ona.
\nDelikanl\u0131 hemen pazar\u0131 bulmu\u015f, ceylanlar\u0131 satm\u0131\u015f, kanl\u0131 elbiselerinden kurtulmu\u015f, y\u0131kan\u0131p paklanm\u0131\u015f, g\u00fczel kad\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fc evin \u00f6n\u00fcne gelmi\u015f yeniden. Evin bah\u00e7esinde kad\u0131nl\u0131 erkekli bir grup, aralar\u0131nda be\u011fendi\u011fi kad\u0131n, yemek yiyor, g\u00fcl\u00fcp e\u011fle\u015fiyormu\u015f. Onu da \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rm\u0131\u015flar sofralar\u0131na. Ama bakm\u0131\u015f ki kad\u0131n onunla tatl\u0131 tatl\u0131 konu\u015furken an\u0131nda ba\u015fka bir erke\u011fe de d\u00f6n\u00fcp g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyebiliyor, o halde ona ula\u015fmak i\u00e7in g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fc olmak, tatl\u0131 diller d\u00f6kmek, g\u00fczel hik\u00e2yeler anlatmak gerek, diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f. B\u00f6ylece ormandaki maceralar\u0131n\u0131, hayvanlar\u0131n\u0131 anlatm\u0131\u015f balland\u0131ra balland\u0131ra, sonunda ev sahibi kad\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fc kazanm\u0131\u015f, herkes evine \u00e7ekildi\u011finde de kendini onun koynunda bulmu\u015f. Delikanl\u0131 sabah erkenden uyand\u0131\u011f\u0131nda bakm\u0131\u015f ki bu yatak da \u00e7ok rahat, kokular g\u00fczel ve cezbedici, kad\u0131n istekli. Akl\u0131na Dilnaz\u2019daki hayat\u0131 gelmi\u015f. Bir g\u00fcn kal\u0131rsa, bir g\u00fcn daha kalacak, sonra g\u00fcnler birbirine eklenecek. Yine g\u00fc\u00e7ten takatten d\u00fc\u015fecek, bu kad\u0131n da Dilnaz gibi s\u00f6ylenecek, i\u00e7i s\u00f6necek. Hemen kalk\u0131p \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f oradan. Aradan birka\u00e7 g\u00fcn ge\u00e7mi\u015f ge\u00e7memi\u015f, \u015fehrin di\u011fer bir ucunda, ba\u015fka bir kad\u0131nla tan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f. Bu kez de ona g\u00fczel s\u00f6zler s\u00f6ylemi\u015f. Avc\u0131l\u0131k hik\u00e2yelerini, orman\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6yle tatl\u0131 tatl\u0131 anlatm\u0131\u015f ki, bu g\u00fczeller g\u00fczeli delikanl\u0131n\u0131n onca yolu kendisini bulmak i\u00e7in kat etti\u011fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f kad\u0131n.
\nDelikanl\u0131 kad\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda tam uykuya ge\u00e7ecekken bir korkudur inmi\u015f yine y\u00fcre\u011fine. \u0130\u00e7inde yatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 temiz ve yumu\u015fak yatak, mutfaktan gelen g\u00fczel kokular… Sabah\u0131 etmeden gizlice \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015f o evden de. B\u00f6yle, bir evden ba\u015fka bir eve, bir kad\u0131ndan ba\u015fka bir kad\u0131na ko\u015farken aradan siz deyin \u00fc\u00e7, ben diyeyim be\u015f y\u0131l ge\u00e7mi\u015f, derken bir g\u00fcn memleketi d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f akl\u0131na, Dilnaz\u2019\u0131n, anas\u0131n\u0131n hasreti burnunu s\u0131zlatm\u0131\u015f. Atlam\u0131\u015f at\u0131na, yola koyulmu\u015f.
\nSabah pencereyi a\u00e7an anas\u0131 bir de bakm\u0131\u015f ki d\u00f6rtnala bir atl\u0131 geliyor. O\u011flumdur diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnerek sevinmi\u015f \u00f6nce ama ne at\u0131 o eski narin g\u00f6vdeli, \u00e7uhal\u0131 ata ne de \u00fczerindeki biniciyi delikanl\u0131 o\u011fluna benzetebilmi\u015f. Atl\u0131 biraz daha yakla\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, hatlar\u0131 sivrilip sertle\u015fmi\u015f, g\u00f6vdesi geni\u015flemi\u015f, g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn alt\u0131na g\u00f6lgeler d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f o\u011flunu bulmu\u015f kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda. O\u011flum olgunla\u015ft\u0131, evine d\u00f6nd\u00fc, diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnerek \u00f6yle sevinmi\u015f ki kad\u0131n. Sonra onun eski at\u0131n\u0131 merak etmi\u015f. \u201c\u00c7ok yava\u015flam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 art\u0131k,\u201d demi\u015f o\u011flu. \u201cGelirken tepelerin ard\u0131ndaki bir k\u00f6yde satt\u0131m. Daha gen\u00e7 bir at ald\u0131m kendime.\u201d
\n\u201cAma sen \u00e7ok severdin at\u0131n\u0131, nas\u0131l ayr\u0131ld\u0131n ondan?\u201d
\n\u201cBo\u015f ver!\u201d demi\u015f o\u011flan. \u201cAt de\u011fil mi? \u0130\u015fimi g\u00f6rs\u00fcn yeter!\u201d
\n\u015ea\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kad\u0131n buna ama bir \u015fey de diyememi\u015f. Zaten o\u011flu da fazla durmam\u0131\u015f evde, hemen Dilnaz\u2019a ko\u015fmu\u015f. Masal bu ya, Dilnaz da onu bekliyormu\u015f zaten. \u00dcstelik az konu\u015fan ama ne istedi\u011fini bilen bu olgun adam\u0131 daha da be\u011fenmi\u015f. Be\u011fenmi\u015f be\u011fenmesine de o eski tutkulu, b\u00fct\u00fcn ruhuyla kendini ona veren delikanl\u0131y\u0131 da bulamam\u0131\u015f.
\nAdam gece yar\u0131s\u0131 Dilnaz\u2019\u0131n yata\u011f\u0131nda, y\u00fcre\u011fine \u00e7\u00f6reklenmi\u015f bir korkuyla uyan\u0131vermi\u015f. Bir de bakm\u0131\u015f ki kad\u0131n\u0131n bacaklar\u0131 iki ba\u015fl\u0131 bir y\u0131lan, g\u00f6vdesine dolanm\u0131\u015f; sa\u00e7lar\u0131 dikenli \u00e7al\u0131l\u0131k, g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcn\u00fc sarm\u0131\u015f. Dili dama\u011f\u0131 kurumu\u015f, yatt\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerden kaskat\u0131 kesilmi\u015f ama \u00e7ok ge\u00e7meden eski so\u011fukkanl\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131na kavu\u015fmu\u015f. Sessizce bacaklar\u0131n\u0131 kurtarm\u0131\u015f uyuyan y\u0131landan, ard\u0131ndan da dikenli \u00e7al\u0131lar aras\u0131ndan s\u0131yr\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, kendini zor bela d\u0131\u015far\u0131 atm\u0131\u015f. Dilnaz ne yaparsa yaps\u0131n bir daha kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na \u00e7\u0131kmam\u0131\u015f. Kad\u0131n sonra sonra \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015f ki o sevdi\u011fi adam hi\u00e7bir kad\u0131nla g\u00fczel bir r\u00fcyaya ge\u00e7meyecek kadar huzursuz, ayn\u0131 kad\u0131n\u0131 ertesi g\u00fcn de sevemeyecek kadar yabanc\u0131la\u015fm\u0131\u015f eski \u00f6z\u00fcne.
\nDerler ki adam\u0131n dokundu\u011fu her kad\u0131n\u0131n y\u00fcre\u011finde bir \u00e7atlak ve \u00fcrk\u00fcnt\u00fc, adamda ise hi\u00e7 gideremedi\u011fi bir bo\u015fluk ve susuzluk olu\u015fmu\u015f. \u00dcn\u00fcn\u00fc duyan kad\u0131nlar ne yakla\u015fm\u0131\u015f ne de yakla\u015fanlar tam kendilerini a\u00e7m\u0131\u015f ona. Ve yine derler ki delikanl\u0131n\u0131n o \u00e7ok sevdi\u011fi at\u0131 yeni tavlas\u0131ndan hemen ayn\u0131 gece ka\u00e7m\u0131\u015f. Ama hayvan delikanl\u0131n\u0131n memleketini \u00e7oktan unuttu\u011fu i\u00e7in en son beraberce yol ald\u0131klar\u0131 orman\u0131n di\u011fer ucundaki yabanc\u0131 \u015fehirde bulmu\u015f kendini. At k\u00e2h sahibinin bir geceli\u011fine sevmi\u015f oldu\u011fu bir kad\u0131nla kar\u015f\u0131la\u015f\u0131p bir de\u011fnek yemi\u015f s\u0131rt\u0131na k\u00e2h ba\u015fka birinin \u00fczerine sald\u0131\u011f\u0131 k\u00f6peklerden can\u0131n\u0131 kurtarm\u0131\u015f zor bela. Sonra da \u0131ss\u0131z k\u0131rlarda yolunu kaybedip hergele bir ata d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f.<\/p>\n
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Aus dem Roman \u201cA\u011f\u0131t\u0131n Sonu\u201d (Ausgezeichnet mit dem Romanpreis \u201cDuygu Asena Roman \u00d6d\u00fcl\u00fc-2015. Deutsche \u00dcbersetzung: Orlanda Verlag, August 2017)<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Bir zamanlar, kimilerine g\u00f6re \u00e7ok uzak, bana sorarsan\u0131z hi\u00e7 de \u00f6yle uzak olmayan bir memlekette g\u00fczel mi g\u00fczel, kara ya\u011f\u0131z bir delikanl\u0131 ya\u015farm\u0131\u015f. Delikanl\u0131n\u0131n dul anas\u0131, iki k\u0131z karde\u015fi ve her \u015feyden \u00e7ok sevdi\u011fi at\u0131 d\u0131\u015f\u0131nda kimi kimsesi yokmu\u015f. Delikanl\u0131 \u00f6yle yak\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131ym\u0131\u015f ki \u00f6n\u00fcnden ge\u00e7ti\u011fi evlerin e\u015fikleri kalabal\u0131kla\u015f\u0131r, pencerelerinde g\u00f6lgeler \u00e7o\u011fal\u0131rm\u0131\u015f. At bir evin \u00f6n\u00fcnde […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"featured_media":4320,"template":"","categories":[30,10],"class_list":["post-3403","stsp_text","type-stsp_text","status-publish","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-issue-1","category-prosa"],"yoast_head":"\n