Da\u00adra\u00adc\u0131k mer\u00addi\u00adven\u00adler\u00adden iner\u00adken, bir za\u00adman\u00adlar ku\u00adlak\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 sa\u00ad\u011f\u0131r eden si\u00adren ses\u00adle\u00adriy\u00adle ken\u00addi\u00adle\u00adri\u00adni bu ya\u00adr\u0131 ka\u00adran\u00adl\u0131k dar ko\u00adri\u00addo\u00adra atan in\u00adsan\u00adla\u00adr\u0131n kor\u00adku\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adn\u0131 his\u00adse\u00addi\u00adyo\u00adrum bir an. Ama sa\u00adde\u00adce bir an. Mer\u00addi\u00adven du\u00adva\u00adr\u0131\u00adna as\u0131\u00adl\u0131 alt\u00adm\u0131\u015f y\u0131l \u00f6n\u00adce\u00adsi\u00adne ait \u201cPss, d\u00fc\u015f\u00adman ara\u00adm\u0131z\u00adda!\u201d pro\u00adpa\u00adgan\u00adda afi\u00ad\u015fiy\u00adle ak\u00adl\u0131m ka\u00adr\u0131\u00ad\u015f\u0131\u00adyor, duy\u00adgu\u00adla\u00adr\u0131m ta\u00adraf de\u00ad\u011fi\u015f\u00adti\u00adri\u00adyor. Boy boy, renk renk gaz mas\u00adke\u00adle\u00adri, \u00e7\u0131p\u00adlak ve s\u0131s\u00adka be\u00adden\u00adle\u00adri sa\u00advun\u00adma\u00ads\u0131z b\u0131\u00adra\u00adkan gaz oda\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adn\u0131 an\u0131m\u00adsa\u00adt\u0131\u00adyor ba\u00adna in\u00adsaf\u00ads\u0131z\u00adca. An\u00adcak d\u00f6rt y\u00fcz de\u00adre\u00adce\u00adlik bir s\u0131\u00adcak\u00adl\u0131k\u00adta eri\u00adye\u00adbi\u00adlen bel\u00adle\u00adri b\u00fc\u00adk\u00fcl\u00adm\u00fc\u015f, a\u011f\u0131z\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 e\u011fil\u00admi\u015f, ka\u00adr\u0131n\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 de\u00ad\u015fil\u00admi\u015f cam bar\u00addak\u00adla\u00adr\u0131n ya\u00ad\u015fa\u00adm\u0131\u015f ol\u00adduk\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 va\u00adha\u00admet de yet\u00admi\u00adyor. Ha\u00adni, ha\u00adyal g\u00fc\u00adc\u00fc\u00adm\u00fc zor\u00adla\u00ady\u0131p, bir sof\u00adra\u00ady\u0131 do\u00adna\u00adtan di\u00ad\u011fer ara\u00e7 ge\u00adre\u00e7\u00adle\u00adrin bir par\u00ad\u00e7a\u00ads\u0131 olan bu cam bar\u00addak\u00adlar\u00addan, bir za\u00adman\u00adlar ya\u00adn\u0131 ba\u015f\u00adla\u00adr\u0131n\u00adda du\u00adran, \u00f6n\u00adce kav\u00adrul\u00admu\u015f, son\u00adra\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 da pas\u00adlan\u00adm\u0131\u015f e\u011f\u00adri b\u00fc\u00fc\u00adr\u00fc \u015fu ka\u00ad\u015f\u0131k\u00adlar\u00addan, \u00e7a\u00adtal\u00adlar\u00addan yo\u00adla \u00e7\u0131\u00adka\u00adrak; \u00e7a\u00adtal\u00adlar\u00addan bi\u00adri\u00adnin bir elin par\u00admak\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 ara\u00ads\u0131n\u00addan a\u011f\u00adza g\u00f6\u00adt\u00fc\u00adr\u00fc\u00adl\u00fc\u00adyor olu\u00ad\u015fu\u00adnu, di\u00ad\u011fer elin bel\u00adki de tam o s\u0131\u00adra\u00adda bar\u00adda\u00ad\u011f\u0131 ok\u00ad\u015fa\u00ady\u0131\u00ad\u015f\u0131\u00adn\u0131 can\u00adlan\u00add\u0131\u00adra\u00adbi\u00adli\u00adrim ka\u00adfam\u00adda. On\u00adla\u00adra do\u00adku\u00adnan par\u00admak\u00adla\u00adr\u0131n sa\u00adhi\u00adbiy\u00adle ay\u00adn\u0131 an\u00adda ya\u00adka\u00adlan\u00adm\u0131\u015f\u00adlar\u00add\u0131r ba\u00adru\u00adta ve ate\u00ad\u015fe de\u00admem ye\u00adter\u00adli ol\u00adma\u00adl\u0131. Bir tek bar\u00adda\u00ad\u011f\u0131n, \u00e7a\u00adta\u00adl\u0131n, b\u0131\u00ad\u00e7a\u00ad\u011f\u0131n bi\u00ad\u00e7im de\u00ad\u011fi\u015f\u00adti\u00adre\u00adrek, ama \u00f6z\u00adle\u00adri\u00adni de ko\u00adru\u00adya\u00adrak di\u00adren\u00admi\u015f\u00adlik\u00adle\u00adri, k\u00fcl\u00adler i\u00e7in\u00addeki kap\u00adka\u00adra is\u00adke\u00adlet\u00adle\u00adriy\u00adle y\u00fck\u00adse\u00adlen bi\u00adna\u00adla\u00adr\u0131n bey\u00adni\u00adme h\u00fc\u00adcum eden g\u00f6\u00adr\u00fcn\u00adt\u00fc\u00adle\u00adri de saf de\u00ad\u011fi\u015f\u00adtir\u00adme\u00adme yet\u00admi\u00adyor.<\/p>\n
Ama ha\u00adf\u0131\u00adza\u00ady\u0131 te\u00adtik\u00adle\u00adyen ba\u015f\u00adka \u015fey\u00adler \u00e7\u0131\u00adk\u0131\u00adyor kar\u00ad\u015f\u0131\u00adma. Yer\u00adler\u00adde\u00adki boy boy va\u00adliz\u00adler, \u00e7an\u00adta\u00adlar si\u00adyah-be\u00adyaz ka\u00adre\u00adler\u00adde\u00adki bel\u00adge\u00adsel\u00adle\u00adre g\u00f6\u00adt\u00fc\u00adr\u00fc\u00adyor be\u00adni \u00f6n\u00adce. \u0130n\u00adsan\u00adlar el\u00adle\u00adrin\u00adde\u00adki va\u00adliz\u00adler\u00adle ko\u00ad\u015far ad\u0131m ak\u0131p gi\u00addi\u00adyor\u00adlar so\u00adkak\u00adlar\u00adda. Me\u00ad\u011fer on\u00adlar hi\u00e7 de uzun tren yol\u00adcu\u00adluk\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adna \u00e7\u0131k\u00admak \u00fcze\u00adre ko\u00ad\u015fu\u015f\u00adtu\u00adrup dur\u00admu\u00adyor\u00adlar\u00adm\u0131\u015f. Sa\u00adde\u00adce ate\u015f\u00adten, ba\u00adrut\u00adtan, bel\u00adki de bir da\u00adha i\u00e7i\u00adne gi\u00adre\u00adme\u00adye\u00adcek\u00adle\u00adri ev\u00adle\u00adrin\u00adden kur\u00adta\u00adra\u00adbi\u00adle\u00adcek\u00adle\u00adri en de\u011fer\u00adli e\u015f\u00adya\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adn\u0131 ta\u00ad\u015f\u0131r\u00adlar\u00adm\u0131\u015f yan\u00adla\u00adr\u0131n\u00adda. \u0130\u015f\u00adte bu tra\u00adjik ge\u00adli\u00adyor ba\u00adna, bi\u00adraz da, san\u00adki y\u0131l\u00adlar\u00add\u0131r ak\u00adl\u0131\u00adma ta\u00adk\u0131l\u00adm\u0131\u015f ama bir t\u00fcr\u00adl\u00fc ya\u00adn\u0131\u00adt\u0131\u00adn\u0131 bu\u00adla\u00adma\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131m bir \u015fe\u00adyin s\u0131r\u00adr\u0131\u00adna vak\u0131f ol\u00admu\u00ad\u015fum gi\u00adbi, \u015fa\u00ad\u015f\u0131\u00adr\u0131\u00adyo\u00adrum. \u015eim\u00addi \u015fim\u00addi kav\u00adr\u0131\u00adyo\u00adrum ve bi\u00adraz\u00adc\u0131k his\u00adse\u00adde\u00adbi\u00adli\u00adyo\u00adrum. Ama yi\u00adne de de\u00ad\u011fil, tam da ara\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131m hi\u00adk\u00e2\u00adye\u00adler de\u00ad\u011fil bu his\u00adset\u00adtik\u00adle\u00adrim. Ba\u015f\u00adka \u015fey\u00adler ol\u00adma\u00adl\u0131. Tozpem\u00adbe renk\u00adle\u00adrin h\u00e2\u00adkim ol\u00adma\u00adya, t\u00fcm in\u00adsan\u00adl\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131 sar\u00adma\u00adya ba\u015f\u00adla\u00adya\u00adca\u00ad\u011f\u0131 bir d\u00f6\u00adne\u00admin bi\u00adti\u00admi\u00adne olan tut\u00adkum\u00adla da il\u00adgi\u00adli ol\u00adma\u00adma\u00adl\u0131. Char\u00adli\u00ade Chap\u00adlin\u2019in yampiri ko\u00ad\u015fu\u015f\u00adtur\u00adma\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adn\u0131 \u00e7ok\u00adtan bo\u00adzup ha\u00adre\u00adket\u00adle\u00adri\u00adni ger\u00ad\u00e7ek yer\u00e7e\u00adki\u00admi\u00adne tes\u00adlim et\u00adti\u00ad\u011fi, zo\u00adrun\u00adlu sa\u00ad\u011f\u0131r\u00adl\u0131k\u00adla\u00adra son ve\u00adrip se\u00adsi\u00adni du\u00adyur\u00adma\u00adya ba\u015f\u00adla\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131 o si\u00adyah-be\u00adyaz ka\u00adre\u00adler de de\u00ad\u011fil sa\u00adde\u00adce.<\/p>\n
Bir\u00adden siyah-beyaz\u00adlar ye\u00adni\u00adden ken\u00addi ha\u00adki\u00adki renk\u00adle\u00adri\u00adne, k\u0131\u00adsa sa\u00e7\u00adl\u0131 buk\u00adle\u00adli g\u00fc\u00adzel ka\u00add\u0131n\u00adla\u00adr\u0131n t\u00fcr t\u00fcr gri\u00adlik\u00adle\u00adri ve be\u00adyaz\u00adl\u0131k\u00adla\u00adr\u0131, ni\u00adce ni\u00adce renk\u00adle\u00adre b\u00fc\u00adr\u00fc\u00adn\u00fc\u00adyor. \u00d6n\u00adce ma\u00adsal\u00adlar\u00adla ha\u00adya\u00adt\u0131\u00adma gi\u00adren, son\u00adra ger\u00ad\u00e7ek\u00adlik i\u00e7in\u00adde var\u00adl\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131 unu\u00adtu\u00adlup gi\u00adden o k\u00fc\u00ad\u00e7\u00fc\u00adc\u00fck va\u00adliz \u00e7\u0131\u00adk\u0131\u00adyor ye\u00adni\u00adden kar\u00ad\u015f\u0131\u00adma.<\/p>\n
Tah\u00adta bir va\u00adliz bu.<\/p>\n
O za\u00adman\u00adlar ba\u00adsit, ucuz \u00e7am tah\u00adta\u00ads\u0131 ile bir ce\u00advi\u00adzi bir\u00adbi\u00adrin\u00adden ay\u0131\u00adra\u00adbi\u00adle\u00adcek ya\u015f\u00adta de\u00ad\u011fil\u00addim bel\u00adki, ama ke\u00adnar\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 y\u0131p\u00adran\u00adm\u0131\u015f, ko\u00adyu kah\u00adveren\u00adgi a\u015f\u0131\u00adna a\u015f\u0131\u00adna yer yer si\u00adya\u00adh\u0131m\u00ads\u0131 le\u00adke\u00adler al\u00adm\u0131\u015f me\u00ad\u015fe bir va\u00adli\u00adzin g\u00fc\u00adzel\u00adli\u011fi\u00adni fark ede\u00adcek du\u00adrum\u00adday\u00adm\u0131\u00ad\u015f\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Mut\u00adla\u00adka sa\u00adhip ol\u00admak is\u00adte\u00admi\u015f\u00adtim ona. Hem de ilk ba\u00adk\u0131\u015f\u00adta. An\u00adne\u00admin b\u00fct\u00fcn direnmelerine ra\u011f\u00admen. Y\u0131l\u00adlar\u00adca ya\u00adpa\u00adyal\u00adn\u0131z ya\u015f\u00adlan\u00adm\u0131\u015f ve ya\u00adpa\u00adyal\u00adn\u0131z \u00f6l\u00fcp git\u00admi\u015f; \u00f6l\u00fc\u00ads\u00fc ise te\u00adsa\u00add\u00fc\u00adfen bir haf\u00adta son\u00adra, o da ge\u00adce g\u00fcn\u00add\u00fcz a\u00e7\u0131k du\u00adran te\u00adle\u00adviz\u00adyo\u00adnun g\u00fc\u00adr\u00fcl\u00adt\u00fc\u00ads\u00fcn\u00adden ra\u00adhat\u00ads\u0131z olan alt kat\u00adta\u00adki kom\u00ad\u015fu\u00adsu ta\u00adra\u00adf\u0131n\u00addan bu\u00adlun\u00admu\u015f za\u00adval\u00adl\u0131 ya\u015f\u00adl\u0131 bir ka\u00add\u0131\u00adn\u0131n va\u00adli\u00adzi\u00adne sa\u00adhip \u00e7\u0131k\u00adma\u00adm\u0131n sa\u00e7\u00adma\u00adl\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131\u00adna ik\u00adna et\u00adme\u00adye \u00e7a\u00adl\u0131\u015f\u00adm\u0131\u015f\u00adt\u0131 be\u00adni. Ama na\u00adfi\u00adle, ben bir ke\u00adre g\u00f6\u00adn\u00fcl ver\u00admi\u00ad\u015fim ya ona… Bu es\u00adki\u00adle\u00adre olan me\u00adra\u00adk\u0131m h\u00e2\u00adl\u00e2 din\u00adme\u00addi. Si\u00adyah-be\u00adyaz film\u00adle\u00adre, o film\u00adler\u00adde\u00adki k\u0131\u00adsa buk\u00adle\u00adli sa\u00e7\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 i\u00e7e k\u0131v\u00adr\u0131\u00adlan, a\u015fk i\u00e7in g\u00f6z\u00adya\u015f\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adna bo\u00ad\u011fu\u00adlan ka\u00add\u0131n\u00adla\u00adra; ka\u00adpak\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 de\u00adsen\u00adli ah\u00ad\u015fap ku\u00adtu\u00adcuk\u00adla\u00adra, de\u00ad\u011fer\u00adle\u00adri\u00adni hi\u00e7\u00adbir za\u00adman bi\u00ad\u00e7e\u00adme\u00addi\u00ad\u011fim es\u00adki bib\u00adlo\u00adla\u00adra, ke\u00adnar\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 oy\u00adma\u00adl\u0131 ka\u00addi\u00adfe kol\u00adtuk\u00adla\u00adra, ku\u00ad\u011fu en\u00addam\u00adl\u0131 por\u00adse\u00adlen \u00e7ay\u00addan\u00adl\u0131k\u00adla\u00adra, da\u00adha ni\u00adce ni\u00adce \u015fey\u00adle\u00adre…<\/p>\n
Ye\u00adni ki\u00adra\u00adla\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131\u00adm\u0131z iki oda\u00adl\u0131, ko\u00adca\u00adman mut\u00adfak\u00adl\u0131 o eve ilk kez an\u00adnem\u00adle be\u00adra\u00adber git\u00adti\u00ad\u011fim\u00adde fark et\u00adtim onu. Te\u00adsa\u00add\u00fc\u00adfen. \u00c7\u00fcn\u00adk\u00fc bir haf\u00adta son\u00adra gel\u00admi\u015f ol\u00adsay\u00add\u0131m, mut\u00adfak du\u00adva\u00adr\u0131\u00adna as\u0131\u00adl\u0131 k\u0131p\u00adk\u0131\u00adz\u0131l son\u00adba\u00adhar yap\u00adrak\u00adla\u00adr\u0131y\u00adla be\u00adzen\u00admi\u015f bir park\u00adta sa\u00adr\u0131\u00ad\u015f\u0131n bir k\u0131z \u00e7o\u00adcu\u00ad\u011fu\u00adnu ya\u00adnak\u00adla\u00adr\u0131n\u00addan \u00f6pen \u00e7il\u00adli bir o\u011f\u00adla\u00adn\u0131n yer al\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131 re\u00adsim d\u0131\u00ad\u015f\u0131n\u00adda, o ev\u00adde otur\u00admu\u015f olan ya\u015f\u00adl\u0131 ka\u00add\u0131\u00adna da\u00adir hi\u00e7\u00adbir \u015fey kal\u00adma\u00adya\u00adcak\u00adt\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u0130\u00e7i t\u0131\u00adka \u00adba\u00adsa e\u015f\u00adya\u00adlar\u00adla do\u00adlu ev\u00adde en faz\u00adla bir sa\u00adat kal\u00adm\u0131\u015f\u00adt\u0131m o ak\u00ad\u015fam. E\u015f\u00adya\u00adla\u00adr\u0131n hi\u00e7\u00adbi\u00adri\u00adne eli\u00adni s\u00fc\u00adre\u00adme\u00adye\u00adce\u00ad\u011fi\u00adni ke\u00adsin bir dil\u00adle ba\u00adba\u00adma ak\u00adtar\u00admak, ba\u00adba\u00adm\u0131n bir \u00e7\u00f6p ye\u00adri ve bir kam\u00adyon ayar\u00adla\u00adma\u00ads\u0131\u00adn\u0131 is\u00adte\u00admek \u00fcze\u00adre i\u015f\u00adten yor\u00adgun ar\u00adg\u0131n d\u00f6n\u00adm\u00fc\u015f olan an\u00adnem\u00adle be\u00adra\u00adber git\u00admi\u015f\u00adtik. Ev sa\u00adhi\u00adbi, evi an\u00adcak bu ha\u00adliy\u00adle ki\u00adra\u00adya ver\u00admi\u015f\u00adti bi\u00adze. \u00d6len ya\u015f\u00adl\u0131 ka\u00add\u0131\u00adn\u0131n ak\u00adra\u00adba\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 yok\u00adtu, e\u015f\u00adya\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adn\u0131 \u00fcst\u00adle\u00adne\u00adcek kim\u00adse de \u00e7\u0131k\u00adma\u00adm\u0131\u015f\u00adt\u0131 or\u00adta\u00adya.<\/p>\n
An\u00adne\u00admin o ak\u00ad\u015fam si\u00adnir\u00adli si\u00adnir\u00adli so\u00adlu\u00addu\u00ad\u011fu\u00adnu ha\u00adt\u0131r\u00adl\u0131\u00adyo\u00adrum. Bu es\u00adki p\u00fcs\u00adk\u00fc e\u015f\u00adya\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 kim al\u0131r, ne\u00adre\u00adye ata\u00adr\u0131z biz bun\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 de\u00adyip du\u00adru\u00adyor, otur\u00adma oda\u00ads\u0131n\u00adda uzun uzun g\u0131\u00adc\u0131r\u00adda\u00adyan es\u00adki a\u011f\u0131r do\u00adla\u00adb\u0131n ka\u00adp\u0131\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adn\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131p \u00e7ek\u00adme\u00adce\u00adle\u00adri\u00adni \u00e7ek\u00adtik\u00ad\u00e7e, si\u00adni\u00adri bir kat da\u00adha ar\u00adt\u0131\u00adyor\u00addu. A\u011f\u0131r ka\u00addi\u00adfe per\u00adde\u00adler\u00adle s\u0131\u00adk\u0131 s\u0131\u00adk\u0131 ka\u00adpa\u00adt\u0131l\u00adm\u0131\u015f pen\u00adce\u00adre\u00adnin \u00f6n\u00fcn\u00adde\u00adki sa\u00adr\u0131 kah\u00adveren\u00adgi ka\u00adr\u0131\u00ad\u015f\u0131\u00adm\u0131 ka\u00addi\u00adfe kol\u00adtuk; onun he\u00admen ya\u00adn\u0131\u00adba\u00ad\u015f\u0131n\u00adda, \u015fem\u00adsi\u00adye\u00adsi so\u00adluk g\u00fcl\u00adku\u00adru\u00adsu ren\u00adgin\u00adde\u00adki ah\u00ad\u015fap g\u00f6v\u00adde\u00adli lam\u00adba \u00f6y\u00adle\u00adsi\u00adne ho\u00ad\u015fu\u00adma git\u00admi\u015f\u00adti ki. O ev\u00adde film\u00adler\u00adde si\u00adyah-be\u00adya\u00adz\u0131n ve gri\u00adnin t\u00fcm ton\u00adla\u00adr\u0131y\u00adla ta\u00adn\u0131\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131m nes\u00adne\u00adler ilk kez as\u0131l renk\u00adle\u00adriy\u00adle kar\u00ad\u015f\u0131\u00adma \u00e7\u0131\u00adk\u0131\u00adyor\u00adlar\u00add\u0131.<\/p>\n
An\u00adnem s\u00f6y\u00adle\u00adne s\u00f6y\u00adle\u00adne mut\u00adfak\u00adta\u00adki do\u00adlap\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 ka\u00adr\u0131\u015f\u00adt\u0131\u00adr\u0131r\u00adken, ba\u00adbam gel\u00admi\u015f\u00adti. Ben\u00adse ar\u00adka\u00adda\u00adki ya\u00adtak oda\u00ads\u0131n\u00adda ken\u00addi ke\u00ad\u015fif\u00adle\u00adri\u00admi ya\u00adp\u0131\u00adyor\u00addum. De\u00admir kar\u00adyo\u00adla\u00adn\u0131n ya\u00adn\u0131n\u00adda du\u00adva\u00adra yas\u00adlan\u00adm\u0131\u015f k\u00fc\u00ad\u00e7\u00fck va\u00adli\u00adzi fark et\u00adti\u00ad\u011fim\u00adde, an\u00adnem\u00adle ba\u00adbam ka\u00adp\u0131\u00ads\u0131 ya\u00adtak oda\u00ads\u0131\u00adna a\u00e7\u0131\u00adlan otur\u00adma oda\u00ads\u0131\u00adna ge\u00e7\u00admi\u015f\u00adler\u00addi.<\/p>\n
Ba\u00adbam: \u201cHa\u00adn\u0131m \u015fu ma\u00adsa\u00adya bak, bu saf ce\u00adviz bi\u00adli\u00adyor mu\u00adsun? At\u0131\u00adl\u0131r m\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00adle \u015fey\u00adler? An\u00adti\u00adka bun\u00adlar ha\u00adn\u0131m, an\u00adti\u00adka. Bak val\u00adla\u00adhi, ye\u00admin\u00adle, \u015fu kar\u00ad\u015f\u0131\u00adda\u00adki k\u00fc\u00ad\u00e7\u00fck kol\u00adtuk var ya, ge\u00ad\u00e7en\u00adler\u00adde b\u00f6y\u00adle bir \u015fey bir d\u00fck\u00adk\u00e2n\u00adda g\u00f6\u00adz\u00fc\u00adme \u00e7arp\u00adt\u0131, al\u0131\u00adna\u00adcak gi\u00adbi de\u00ad\u011fil.\u201d<\/p>\n
An\u00adnem ise si\u00adnir\u00adli:<\/p>\n
\u201cBen an\u00adti\u00adka man\u00adti\u00adka din\u00adle\u00admem, kim bi\u00adlir ka\u00e7 y\u0131l \u00f6n\u00adce\u00adsi\u00adne ait ya\u015f\u00adl\u0131 bir ka\u00add\u0131\u00adn\u0131n ar\u00adt\u0131k\u00adla\u00adr\u0131y\u00adla \u00e7o\u00adcuk\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adm\u0131 ya\u00ad\u015fat\u00admam, ken\u00addim de kul\u00adlan\u00admam. Gi\u00adder ucu\u00adzun\u00addan, ama ye\u00adni \u015fey\u00adler al\u0131\u00adr\u0131m. Hem be\u00adnim e\u015f\u00adya\u00adla\u00adr\u0131m ne g\u00fc\u00adne du\u00adru\u00adyor, hep\u00adsi de s\u0131\u00ad\u011far bu\u00adra\u00adya.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ba\u00adba\u00adm\u0131n \u0131s\u00adrar ede\u00adcek ol\u00addu\u00ad\u011fu\u00adnu, ama bu\u00adna pek de ce\u00adsa\u00adret ede\u00adme\u00addi\u00ad\u011fi\u00adni his\u00adse\u00addi\u00adyor\u00addum. Ba\u00adbam \u00fc\u015fen\u00adge\u00e7 bir adam\u00add\u0131 bi\u00adraz. \u00d6y\u00adle sa\u00adn\u0131\u00adyor\u00addum, ama \u00e7ok son\u00adra\u00adla\u00adr\u0131, bu\u00adnun as\u00adl\u0131n\u00adda bil\u00adme\u00addi\u00ad\u011fi bir dil\u00adde der\u00addi\u00adni an\u00adla\u00adta\u00adma\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131n\u00addan kay\u00adnak\u00adlan\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131\u00adn\u0131, mem\u00adle\u00adke\u00adte (sa\u00adde\u00adce ta\u00adtil\u00adler\u00adde g\u00f6r\u00add\u00fc\u00ad\u011f\u00fcm, ba\u00adna pek bir \u015fey ifa\u00adde et\u00adme\u00adyen do\u00ad\u011fup b\u00fc\u00ady\u00fc\u00add\u00fck\u00adle\u00adri \u00fcl\u00adke\u00adle\u00adri i\u00e7in hep b\u00f6y\u00adle der\u00adler\u00addi) git\u00adti\u00ad\u011fi\u00admiz\u00adde fark et\u00admi\u015f\u00adtim. Mem\u00adle\u00adket\u00adte bir ay bo\u00adyun\u00adca so\u00adkak\u00adtan eve gir\u00adme\u00adyen, s\u00fc\u00adrek\u00adli ko\u00ad\u015fu\u015f\u00adtur\u00adma i\u00e7in\u00adde olan ba\u00adba\u00adm\u0131n ge\u00adri d\u00f6n\u00add\u00fc\u00ad\u011f\u00fc\u00adm\u00fcz\u00adde, g\u00fcn\u00adle\u00adri\u00adni da\u00adha \u00e7ok ev ve i\u015f ara\u00ads\u0131n\u00adda ge\u00ad\u00e7ir\u00adme\u00adsi\u00adnin, ara\u00adda bir ak\u00adra\u00adba\u00adla\u00adra, ta\u00adn\u0131\u00add\u0131k\u00adla\u00adra ya\u00adp\u0131\u00adlan zi\u00adya\u00adret\u00adler d\u0131\u00ad\u015f\u0131n\u00adda pek d\u0131\u00ad\u015fa\u00adr\u0131\u00adya \u00e7\u0131k\u00adma\u00adma\u00ads\u0131\u00adn\u0131n \u00fc\u015fen\u00adge\u00e7\u00adli\u00ad\u011fin\u00adden \u00e7ok, ba\u015f\u00adka ne\u00adden\u00adle\u00adre ba\u011f\u00adl\u0131 ol\u00addu\u00ad\u011fu\u00adnu an\u00adcak b\u00fc\u00ady\u00fc\u00add\u00fc\u00ad\u011f\u00fcm\u00adde an\u00adla\u00adm\u0131\u015f\u00adt\u0131m. Di\u00adli\u00adni bil\u00adme\u00addi\u00ad\u011fi, \u00f6\u011f\u00adren\u00adme\u00admek i\u00e7in b\u00fc\u00ady\u00fck bir a\u015fk\u00adla di\u00adren\u00addi\u00ad\u011fi bu \u00fcl\u00adke\u00adde, ba\u00adbam hep bir ya\u00adban\u00adc\u0131 ola\u00adrak kal\u00adm\u0131\u015f; bu ya\u00adban\u00adc\u0131\u00adl\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131y\u00adla da i\u00e7i\u00adne ka\u00adpa\u00adn\u0131k, be\u00adce\u00adrik\u00adsiz adam kim\u00adli\u00ad\u011fi\u00adne b\u00fc\u00adr\u00fc\u00adn\u00fc\u00adver\u00admi\u015f\u00adti. Ha\u00adta yap\u00admak\u00adtan kork\u00adma\u00adyan g\u00f6\u00adz\u00fc ka\u00adra bir ka\u00add\u0131n ol\u00addu\u00ad\u011fu i\u00e7in, an\u00adne\u00admin dil so\u00adru\u00adnu he\u00admen he\u00admen hi\u00e7 yok\u00adtu. Her ye\u00adre gi\u00adren \u00e7\u0131\u00adkan an\u00adnem, \u00e7a\u00adl\u0131\u015f\u00adt\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131 fab\u00adri\u00adka\u00adda\u00adki ka\u00add\u0131n\u00adlar\u00adla de\u00addi\u00adko\u00addu ya\u00adp\u0131p bun\u00addan ke\u00adyif ala\u00adcak ka\u00addar \u00f6\u011f\u00adren\u00admi\u015f\u00adti bu\u00adra\u00adn\u0131n di\u00adli\u00adni. San\u00adki be\u00adnim i\u00e7in ya\u00adp\u0131l\u00adm\u0131\u015f k\u00fc\u00ad\u00e7\u00fck va\u00adli\u00adzi eli\u00adme al\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131m\u00adda, \u00f6len ka\u00add\u0131\u00adn\u0131n ar\u00add\u0131n\u00addan b\u0131\u00adrak\u00adt\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131 e\u015f\u00adya\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6\u00adpe at\u00admak \u00fcze\u00adre kol\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 s\u0131\u00adva\u00adya\u00adcak ola\u00adn\u0131n da yi\u00adne an\u00adnem ola\u00adca\u00ad\u011f\u0131\u00adn\u0131 d\u00fc\u00ad\u015f\u00fcn\u00add\u00fc\u00ad\u011f\u00fc\u00adm\u00fc ha\u00adt\u0131r\u00adl\u0131\u00adyo\u00adrum.<\/p>\n
K\u00fc\u00ad\u00e7\u00fck ol\u00adma\u00ads\u0131\u00adna ra\u011f\u00admen a\u011f\u0131r\u00adca bir va\u00adliz\u00addi. Ya\u015f\u00adl\u0131 ka\u00add\u0131n bel\u00adki de \u00f6l\u00adme\u00adden \u00f6n\u00adce se\u00adya\u00adha\u00adte \u00e7\u0131\u00adka\u00adcak\u00adt\u0131 ya da \u00e7\u0131k\u00adm\u0131\u015f\u00adt\u0131 da e\u015f\u00adya\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adn\u0131 i\u00e7in\u00adden \u00e7\u0131\u00adkar\u00adma\u00adya za\u00adma\u00adn\u0131 kal\u00adma\u00adm\u0131\u015f\u00adt\u0131. Es\u00adki de\u00admir ki\u00adli\u00addi\u00adne eli\u00admi at\u00adt\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131m\u00adda, hem me\u00adrak hem de kor\u00adkuy\u00adla do\u00adlup ta\u015f\u00adm\u0131\u015f\u00adt\u0131m. Ga\u00adrip, san\u00adki a\u00e7\u00adt\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131m an\u00adda ya\u015f\u00adl\u0131 ka\u00add\u0131n Ala\u00adad\u00addin\u2019in si\u00adhir\u00adli lam\u00adba\u00ads\u0131n\u00adda\u00adki dev gi\u00adbi ba\u00adlon\u00adla\u00ad\u015f\u0131p \u015fi\u00ad\u015fe\u00adcek, ko\u00adca\u00adman c\u00fcs\u00adse\u00adsiy\u00adle kar\u00ad\u015f\u0131\u00adma di\u00adki\u00adli\u00adve\u00adre\u00adcek\u00adti. \u00c7o\u00adcuk\u00adlu\u00ad\u011fun d\u00fc\u015f d\u00fcn\u00adya\u00ads\u0131 bir ya\u00adna, ger\u00ad\u00e7ek ha\u00adyat\u00adta\u00adki kor\u00adku\u00adla\u00adr\u0131n et\u00adki\u00adsi de var\u00add\u0131 ta\u00adbii ki bu \u00e7e\u00adkin\u00adtim\u00adde. Giz\u00adli\u00adce ba\u015f\u00adka\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adn\u0131n e\u015f\u00adya\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adn\u0131 ka\u00adr\u0131\u015f\u00adt\u0131r\u00admak, h\u0131r\u00ads\u0131z\u00adl\u0131k yap\u00admak gi\u00adbi bir \u015fey de\u00ad\u011fil miy\u00addi? Ama, an\u00adne\u00admin de do\u00adlap\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 ka\u00adr\u0131\u015f\u00adt\u0131r\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131\u00adn\u0131, i\u00e7in\u00adde\u00adki\u00adle\u00adri bo\u00ad\u015fal\u00adt\u0131p \u00e7\u00f6\u00adpe ata\u00adca\u00ad\u011f\u0131\u00adn\u0131 d\u00fc\u00ad\u015f\u00fc\u00adn\u00fcp ra\u00adhat\u00adla\u00adm\u0131\u015f\u00adt\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Ku\u00adla\u00ad\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7 ge\u00ad\u00e7i\u00adre ge\u00ad\u00e7i\u00adre si\u00adga\u00adra\u00ads\u0131\u00adn\u0131 \u00e7e\u00adken ba\u00adba\u00adm\u0131n ne\u00adfes al\u0131\u015f\u00ad ve\u00adri\u00ad\u015fin\u00adde, ses\u00adsiz\u00adce va\u00adli\u00adzin ki\u00adli\u00addi\u00adni a\u00e7\u00adt\u0131m. An\u00adl\u0131k bir klik. Bel\u00adki de o klik se\u00adsiy\u00addi be\u00adni o ka\u00addar b\u00fc\u00ady\u00fc\u00adle\u00adyen. Y\u0131l\u00adlar\u00adca, her\u00adkes\u00adten giz\u00adle\u00adye\u00adce\u00ad\u011fim, kim\u00adse\u00adnin do\u00adkun\u00adma\u00ads\u0131\u00adn\u0131 is\u00adte\u00adme\u00adye\u00adce\u00ad\u011fim e\u015f\u00adya\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adm\u0131 bu klik se\u00adsiy\u00adle a\u00e7a\u00adcak, yi\u00adne o ses\u00adle on\u00adlar\u00addan ay\u00adr\u0131\u00adla\u00adcak\u00adt\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Hi\u00e7 de \u00f6y\u00adle a\u011f\u0131r ol\u00addu\u00ad\u011fu ka\u00addar, t\u0131\u00adka ba\u00adsa do\u00adlu de\u00ad\u011fil\u00addi. \u0130ri\u00adli ufak\u00adl\u0131 bir s\u00fc\u00adr\u00fc bez men\u00addil. Yer yer ep\u00adri\u00admi\u015f, be\u00adyaz\u00adl\u0131k\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 u\u00e7up gri\u00adye d\u00f6n\u00adm\u00fc\u015f men\u00addil\u00adle\u00adrin ke\u00adnar\u00adla\u00adr\u0131n\u00adda\u00adki dan\u00adtel\u00adler; ba\u00adz\u0131\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adn\u0131n k\u00f6\u00ad\u015fe\u00adle\u00adrin\u00adde\u00adki ka\u00adba\u00adr\u0131k mo\u00adtif\u00adler; he\u00adle o naf\u00adta\u00adlin ko\u00adku\u00adsu, \u00f6y\u00adle\u00ad ta\u00adn\u0131\u00add\u0131k\u00adt\u0131 ki. Mem\u00adle\u00adket\u00adte\u00adki ba\u00adba\u00adan\u00adne\u00admin kim\u00adse\u00adnin do\u00adkun\u00adma\u00adya ce\u00adsa\u00adret ede\u00adme\u00addi\u00ad\u011fi ko\u00adca\u00adman san\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131\u00adn\u0131n ko\u00adku\u00adsuy\u00adla ay\u00adn\u0131. Ba\u00adba\u00adan\u00adne\u00admin, bir za\u00adman\u00adlar an\u00adne\u00admin de men\u00addil\u00adle\u00adri var\u00add\u0131. Be\u00adnim ise hep k\u00e2\u00ad\u011f\u0131t men\u00addil\u00adle\u00adrim ol\u00admu\u015f\u00adtu.<\/p>\n
Ve def\u00adter\u00adler. Def\u00adter\u00adle\u00adri a\u00e7\u00adt\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131\u00adm\u0131 ve el ya\u00adz\u0131\u00ads\u0131y\u00adla ka\u00adle\u00adme al\u0131n\u00adm\u0131\u015f s\u00f6z\u00adc\u00fck\u00adle\u00adri oku\u00adma\u00adya \u00e7a\u00adl\u0131\u015f\u00adt\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131\u00adm\u0131, d\u00fcz\u00adg\u00fcn ol\u00adma\u00ads\u0131\u00adna ra\u011f\u00admen, i\u00e7 i\u00e7e ge\u00ad\u00e7en o sa\u00ad\u011fa ya\u00adt\u0131k el ya\u00adz\u0131\u00ads\u0131\u00adn\u0131 s\u00f6\u00adke\u00adme\u00addik\u00adten son\u00adra, ay\u00adn\u0131 el ya\u00adz\u0131\u00ads\u0131y\u00adla do\u00adlu di\u00ad\u011fer iki def\u00adte\u00adri de bir ke\u00adna\u00adra at\u00adt\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131\u00adm\u0131 ha\u00adt\u0131r\u00adl\u0131\u00adyo\u00adrum. \u0130\u00e7\u00adle\u00adri\u00adne mek\u00adtup\u00adlar, fa\u00adtu\u00adra\u00adlar, bir\u00adta\u00adk\u0131m ev\u00adrak\u00adlar ko\u00adnul\u00admu\u015f zarf\u00adlar. Si\u00adyah-be\u00adyaz fo\u00adto\u011f\u00adraf\u00adlar\u00adda, k\u00e2h ken\u00addi ya\u015f\u00adla\u00adr\u0131n\u00adda\u00adki ka\u00add\u0131n\u00adlar\u00adla, k\u00e2h as\u00adker \u00fcni\u00adfor\u00adma\u00ads\u0131 i\u00e7in\u00adde\u00adki gen\u00e7 bir ada\u00adm\u0131n kol\u00adla\u00adr\u0131n\u00adda, buk\u00adle\u00adli sa\u00e7\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 omuz\u00adla\u00adr\u0131n\u00adda gen\u00e7 bir ka\u00add\u0131n hep g\u00fc\u00adl\u00fcm\u00ads\u00fc\u00adyor. Hep\u00adsi si\u00adyah-be\u00adyaz. Def\u00adter\u00adler, fo\u00adto\u011f\u00adraf\u00adlar, mek\u00adtup\u00adlar, mek\u00adtup\u00adlar\u2026 Hep\u00adsi\u00adni, bir ke\u00adna\u00adra koy\u00admu\u015f, o k\u00fc\u00ad\u00e7\u00fck va\u00adli\u00adze g\u00f6z dik\u00admi\u015f\u00adtim, bir de ke\u00adnar\u00adla\u00adr\u0131n\u00adda\u00adki be\u00adyaz dan\u00adtel\u00adle\u00adri sol\u00admu\u015f bej bir men\u00addi\u00adle.<\/p>\n
\u015eim\u00addi ise o e\u015f\u00adya\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 na\u00ads\u0131l at\u00adm\u0131\u015f ol\u00addu\u00ad\u011fu\u00adma \u015fa\u00ad\u015f\u0131\u00adyor, ta\u00adri\u00adhin bir ke\u00adsi\u00adti\u00adni yok et\u00adti\u00ad\u011fim i\u00e7in i\u00e7im c\u0131z edi\u00adyor, vic\u00addan aza\u00adb\u0131 du\u00adyu\u00adyo\u00adrum. Ama za\u00adten en ge\u00e7 bir haf\u00adta i\u00e7in\u00adde di\u00ad\u011fer t\u00fcm e\u015f\u00adya\u00adlar\u00adla bir\u00adlik\u00adte \u00e7\u00f6\u00adpe at\u0131\u00adla\u00adcak si\u00adyah-be\u00adyaz fo\u00adto\u011f\u00adraf\u00adla\u00adr\u0131, mek\u00adtup\u00adla\u00adr\u0131, bir\u00adka\u00e7 ta\u00adne ki\u00adta\u00adb\u0131, kim bi\u00adlir ka\u00e7 on y\u0131l\u00adl\u0131k ge\u00e7\u00admi\u015f\u00adle\u00adri olan, y\u0131\u00adka\u00adna y\u0131\u00adka\u00adna ep\u00adri\u00admi\u015f men\u00addil\u00adle\u00adri \u00e7\u00f6\u00adpe at\u0131l\u00admak \u00fcze\u00adre bir \u00e7\u00f6p tor\u00adba\u00ads\u0131\u00adna dol\u00addu\u00adrur\u00adken, b\u00f6y\u00adle duy\u00adgu\u00adlar\u00addan bi\u00adha\u00adber\u00addim.<\/p>\n
Po\u00ad\u015fe\u00adti, an\u00adne\u00admin an\u00adtre\u00adde i\u00e7i\u00adni bir s\u00fc\u00adr\u00fc \u015fey\u00adle is\u00adtif\u00adle\u00addi\u00ad\u011fi kar\u00adton\u00adlar\u00addan bi\u00adri\u00adne yer\u00adle\u015f\u00adtir\u00addim. \u00dc\u00e7\u00adl\u00fc kol\u00adtu\u00ad\u011fa e\u011f\u00adre\u00adti otur\u00admu\u015f, bez\u00adgin ve ek\u00ad\u015fi bir su\u00adrat\u00adla kim bi\u00adlir ka\u00ad\u00e7\u0131n\u00adc\u0131 si\u00adga\u00adra\u00ads\u0131\u00adn\u0131 ya\u00adkan, ken\u00addi\u00adsi\u00adni bek\u00adle\u00adyen i\u015f\u00adler\u00adden uzak\u00adla\u015f\u00admak is\u00adter\u00adce\u00adsi\u00adne da\u00adl\u0131p git\u00admi\u015f olan ba\u00adbam, \u00f6n\u00fcn\u00adden ge\u00ad\u00e7er\u00adken be\u00adni fark et\u00adme\u00addi bi\u00adle. \u0130kin\u00adci kez, bu kez va\u00adliz\u00adle \u00f6n\u00fcn\u00adden ge\u00ad\u00e7er\u00adken ba\u00ad\u015f\u0131\u00adn\u0131 kal\u00add\u0131r\u00add\u0131 ve ay\u00adn\u0131 ek\u00ad\u015fi su\u00adrat\u00adla ama et\u00adra\u00adf\u0131\u00adn\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00adme\u00adye\u00adrek g\u00fc\u00adl\u00fcm\u00adse\u00addi. An\u00adnem ise mut\u00adfak\u00adta\u00adki do\u00adlap\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 bo\u00ad\u015falt\u00admak\u00adla me\u015f\u00adgul\u00add\u00fc.<\/p>\n
Ya\u015f\u00adl\u0131 ka\u00add\u0131\u00adna ait hi\u00e7\u00adbir \u015fey b\u0131\u00adrak\u00adma\u00adya ni\u00adyet\u00adli de\u00ad\u011fil gi\u00adbiy\u00addi. Be\u00adni fark et\u00adti\u00ad\u011fin\u00adde bur\u00adnun\u00addan so\u00adlu\u00adyor\u00addu.<\/p>\n
\u201cK\u0131\u00adz\u0131m sen de ba\u00adban gi\u00adbi tem\u00adbel\u00adlik edip dur\u00adma.\u201d An\u00adnem \u00e7o\u00adcuk\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adna si\u00adtem et\u00adti\u00ad\u011fin\u00adde hep ba\u00adba\u00adm\u0131 \u00f6r\u00adnek ve\u00adrir\u00addi. Uyu\u00ad\u015fuk\u00adlu\u00ad\u011fu\u00admuz, ehlikeyif ve her t\u00fcr ma\u00adra\u00adzi hal\u00adle\u00adri\u00admiz ba\u00adba\u00adm\u0131n gen\u00adle\u00adrin\u00adden bi\u00adze ge\u00e7\u00admi\u015f\u00adti ona g\u00f6\u00adre. Alt\u00adta\u00adki do\u00adlap\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 bo\u00ad\u015falt\u00adma\u00adm\u0131 is\u00adti\u00adyor\u00addu. Elim\u00adde\u00adki va\u00adli\u00adzi fark et\u00adti\u00ad\u011fin\u00adde, \u201cO pis \u015fe\u00adyi de g\u00f6\u00adt\u00fcr ho\u00adle at. Bo\u015f mu onun i\u00e7i?\u201d Va\u00adli\u00adzi elim\u00adden kap\u00adt\u0131, bo\u015f ol\u00addu\u00ad\u011fu\u00adnu an\u00adla\u00add\u0131k\u00adtan son\u00adra ye\u00adre at\u0131p yi\u00adne i\u015fe ko\u00adyul\u00addu.<\/p>\n
\u201cYa\u00adz\u0131k, bu ya\u015f\u00adl\u0131 ka\u00add\u0131\u00adn\u0131n her \u015fe\u00adyi ken\u00addi\u00adsi gi\u00adbi \u00e7\u00fc\u00adr\u00fc\u00adm\u00fc\u015f git\u00admi\u015f. Kim bi\u00adlir ne za\u00adman\u00addan kal\u00adma bu kap\u00ad ka\u00adcak? Ama bu ka\u00ad\u015f\u0131k\u00adlar da g\u00fc\u00adm\u00fc\u00ad\u015fe ben\u00adzi\u00adyor. Bun\u00adlar da ne at\u0131\u00adl\u0131r ne kul\u00adla\u00adn\u0131\u00adl\u0131r. Ya bir ak\u00adra\u00adba\u00ads\u0131 ve\u00adya dev\u00adlet ge\u00adlip de g\u00fc\u00adm\u00fc\u015f ka\u00ad\u015f\u0131k\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 so\u00adrar\u00adsa? En iyi\u00adsi at\u00adma\u00adma\u00adl\u0131 bun\u00adla\u00adr\u0131. K\u0131\u00adz\u0131m sen ni\u00adye h\u00e2\u00adl\u00e2 di\u00adki\u00adlip du\u00adru\u00adyor\u00adsun ora\u00adlar\u00adda?\u201d<\/p>\n
Di\u00adki\u00adlip kal\u00adm\u0131\u015f\u00adt\u0131m. Pa\u00adzar\u00adl\u0131k yap\u00admam ge\u00adre\u00adki\u00adyor. A\u011f\u00adla\u00adya\u00adrak an\u00adnem\u00adden bir \u015fey\u00adler ko\u00adpar\u00adma\u00adn\u0131n ya\u00ad\u015f\u0131 \u00e7ok\u00adtan ge\u00e7\u00admi\u015f. En faz\u00adla k\u00fc\u00adse\u00adbi\u00adli\u00adrim. Ama, an\u00adne\u00admin ne k\u00fcs\u00adme\u00adle\u00adre ne de a\u011f\u00adla\u00adma\u00adla\u00adra al\u00add\u0131\u00adra\u00adcak ta\u00adham\u00adm\u00fc\u00adl\u00fc var.<\/p>\n
An\u00adnem\u00adden o va\u00adli\u00adzi ko\u00adpar\u00admam i\u015f\u00adte onun ge\u00adril\u00admi\u015f, tar\u00adt\u0131\u00ad\u015fa\u00adma\u00adya\u00adcak ka\u00addar yor\u00adgun ve bez\u00adgin ruh ha\u00adliy\u00adle m\u00fcm\u00adk\u00fcn ol\u00addu. Ama, ay\u00adlar \u00f6n\u00adce s\u00f6\u00adz\u00fc\u00adn\u00fc ver\u00addi\u00ad\u011fi hal\u00adde bir t\u00fcr\u00adl\u00fc ala\u00adma\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131 oyun\u00adcak\u00ad\u00e7\u0131\u00adda\u00adki k\u00fc\u00ad\u00e7\u00fck bir san\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011fa pa\u00adra ver\u00admek\u00adten kur\u00adtul\u00addu\u00ad\u011fu i\u00e7in ba\u00adna b\u0131\u00adrak\u00adt\u0131 onu sa\u00adn\u0131\u00adr\u0131m.<\/p>\n
O ak\u00ad\u015fam elim\u00adde\u00adki va\u00adliz\u00adle iki haf\u00adta son\u00adra \u00e7\u0131\u00adka\u00adca\u00ad\u011f\u0131\u00adm\u0131z es\u00adki evi\u00admi\u00adze d\u00f6n\u00add\u00fck\u00adten son\u00adra, an\u00adnem, ye\u00adni evi adam ede\u00adne ka\u00addar be\u00adni bir da\u00adha ya\u00adn\u0131\u00adna al\u00adma\u00add\u0131. E\u015f\u00adya\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6\u00adpe ata\u00adcak olan ki\u00ad\u015fi\u00adle\u00adri yi\u00adne o bul\u00admu\u015f\u00adt\u0131. On\u00addan \u00f6n\u00adce de ka\u00add\u0131\u00adn\u0131n i\u015fe ya\u00adrar mo\u00adbil\u00adya\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adn\u0131, ba\u00adba\u00adm\u0131n bas\u00adt\u0131r\u00adma\u00ads\u0131\u00adna ra\u011f\u00admen an\u00adne\u00adme ka\u00adbul et\u00adti\u00adre\u00adme\u00addi\u00ad\u011fi ce\u00adviz ma\u00adsay\u00adla bir\u00adlik\u00adte, es\u00adki mo\u00adbil\u00adya al\u0131p sa\u00adtan bir Arap\u2019a ver\u00admi\u015f\u00adti.<\/p>\n
Eve iki haf\u00adta son\u00adra ta\u00ad\u015f\u0131n\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131\u00adm\u0131z\u00adda, ya\u015f\u00adl\u0131 ka\u00add\u0131n\u00addan tek bir iz bi\u00adle kal\u00adma\u00adm\u0131\u015f\u00adt\u0131. Sa\u00adr\u0131\u00adya \u00e7a\u00adlan, ye\u00ad\u015fil \u00e7i\u00ad\u00e7ek\u00adli a\u011f\u0131r du\u00advar k\u00e2\u00ad\u011f\u0131\u00add\u0131 git\u00admi\u015f, du\u00advar\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 bem\u00adbe\u00adyaz, g\u00fc\u00adne\u015f\u00adli bir ev olu\u00adver\u00admi\u015f\u00adti. Sa\u00adde\u00adce, sa\u00adn\u0131\u00adr\u0131m an\u00adnem sev\u00addi\u00ad\u011fi i\u00e7in, es\u00adki ye\u00adri\u00adne ta\u00adk\u0131l\u00adm\u0131\u015f olan o o\u011f\u00adla\u00adn\u0131n k\u0131\u00adz\u0131 \u00f6p\u00adt\u00fc\u00ad\u011f\u00fc re\u00adsim du\u00adru\u00adyor\u00addu. Ama bir de, her g\u00fcn bir\u00adka\u00e7 kez a\u00e7\u0131p ka\u00adpat\u00adt\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131m, ar\u00adt\u0131k b\u00fc\u00ady\u00fc\u00add\u00fc\u00ad\u011f\u00fcm i\u00e7in var\u00adl\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131n\u00addan do\u00adla\u00ady\u0131 be\u00adni ay\u0131p\u00adla\u00adya\u00adcak\u00adla\u00adr\u0131n\u00addan kork\u00adtu\u00ad\u011fum uyu\u00adyan k\u00fc\u00ad\u00e7\u00fck be\u00adbe\u00ad\u011fi\u00admi, tek ba\u00ad\u015f\u0131\u00adma al\u00adma\u00adya ba\u015f\u00adla\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131m ki\u00adtap\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adm\u0131, g\u00fc\u00adzel ko\u00adku\u00adlu sil\u00adgi\u00adle\u00adri\u00admi, ka\u00adlem\u00adle\u00adri\u00admi ve bej dan\u00adtel\u00adli k\u00fc\u00ad\u00e7\u00fck men\u00addi\u00adli sak\u00adla\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131m va\u00adli\u00adzim. Ona ar\u00adt\u0131k san\u00add\u0131k di\u00adyor\u00addum. O men\u00addi\u00adli ise san\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131 ka\u00adpat\u00adma\u00addan \u00f6n\u00adce e\u015f\u00adya\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adm\u0131n \u00fcze\u00adri\u00adne \u00f6r\u00adt\u00fc\u00adyor\u00addum.<\/p>\n
\u0130l\u00adko\u00adkul \u00fc\u00e7\u00adten d\u00f6r\u00add\u00fcn\u00adc\u00fc s\u0131\u00adn\u0131\u00adfa ge\u00ad\u00e7er\u00adken san\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131\u00adm\u0131 her a\u00e7\u00adt\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131m\u00adda, ak\u00adl\u0131\u00adma ya\u015f\u00adl\u0131 ka\u00add\u0131n da\u00adha s\u0131k ge\u00adlir ol\u00admu\u015f\u00adtu. Ne za\u00adman\u00adlar kul\u00adlan\u00adm\u0131\u015f\u00adt\u0131, aca\u00adba onun da m\u0131 \u00e7o\u00adcuk\u00adlu\u00ad\u011fun\u00addan kal\u00admay\u00add\u0131? At\u00adt\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131m fo\u00adto\u011f\u00adraf\u00adla\u00adr\u0131n hi\u00e7\u00adbi\u00adrin\u00adde \u00e7o\u00adcuk fo\u00adto\u011f\u00adra\u00adf\u0131 yok\u00adtu. \u00dcs\u00adte\u00adlik onu, ne \u00e7o\u00adcuk ne de ya\u015f\u00adl\u0131 bi\u00adri ola\u00adrak d\u00fc\u00ad\u015f\u00fc\u00adne\u00adbi\u00adli\u00adyor\u00addum. O, si\u00adyah-be\u00adyaz fo\u00adto\u011f\u00adraf\u00adlar\u00adda g\u00fc\u00adl\u00fcm\u00adse\u00adyen, g\u00fc\u00adzel gen\u00e7 bir ka\u00add\u0131n\u00add\u0131 be\u00adnim i\u00e7in.<\/p>\n
Bir g\u00fcn tam kar\u00ad\u015f\u0131\u00adm\u0131z\u00adda otu\u00adran ve ar\u00adt\u0131k an\u00adnem\u00adle s\u0131\u00adk\u0131 dost olan Mer\u00adyem Tey\u00adzey\u00adle an\u00adne\u00admin ge\u00adni\u015f mut\u00adfak\u00adta \u00e7ay i\u00e7er\u00adken soh\u00adbet\u00adle\u00adri\u00adne ku\u00adlak ka\u00adbar\u00adt\u0131\u00adyor\u00addum. An\u00adnem b\u00fc\u00ady\u00fck\u00adle\u00adrin ko\u00adnu\u015f\u00adma\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adn\u0131 din\u00adle\u00adme\u00adme k\u0131\u00adzar\u00add\u0131 hep, he\u00adle Mer\u00adyem Tey\u00adzey\u00adle yan ya\u00adna gel\u00addik\u00adle\u00adrin\u00addey\u00adse, or\u00adta\u00adl\u0131k\u00adta g\u00f6\u00adr\u00fcn\u00adme\u00adme hi\u00e7 izin ver\u00admez\u00addi.<\/p>\n
An\u00adnem be\u00adce\u00adrik\u00adli bir ka\u00add\u0131n\u00add\u0131. Ya\u015f\u00adl\u0131 ka\u00add\u0131\u00adn\u0131n b\u00fc\u00ady\u00fck, a\u011f\u0131r e\u015f\u00adya\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adn\u0131 at\u00adt\u0131k\u00adtan son\u00adra, i\u00e7in\u00adde kris\u00adtal va\u00adzo\u00adla\u00adr\u0131n ve ai\u00adle fo\u00adto\u011f\u00adraf\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adn\u0131n yer al\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131 es\u00adki evi\u00admiz\u00adde\u00adki ge\u00adni\u015f vit\u00adri\u00adniy\u00adle otur\u00adma oda\u00ads\u0131\u00adn\u0131 iki\u00adye b\u00f6l\u00adm\u00fc\u015f, vit\u00adri\u00adnin ar\u00adka\u00ads\u0131\u00adna ken\u00addi ya\u00adtak\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adn\u0131 yer\u00adle\u015f\u00adtir\u00admi\u015f\u00adti. Vit\u00adrin\u00adle du\u00advar ara\u00ads\u0131n\u00adda ka\u00adlan bo\u015f\u00adlu\u00ad\u011fu da yer\u00adle\u00adre ka\u00addar inen, etek\u00adle\u00adri dan\u00adtel\u00adli, pi\u00adle\u00adli be\u00adyaz bir per\u00addey\u00adle ka\u00adpat\u00adm\u0131\u015f, b\u00f6y\u00adle\u00adce ken\u00addi ya\u00adtak oda\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adn\u0131 otur\u00adma b\u00f6\u00adl\u00fc\u00adm\u00fcn\u00adden ay\u0131r\u00adm\u0131\u015f\u00adt\u0131. Ben\u00adden iki ya\u015f k\u00fc\u00ad\u00e7\u00fck olan er\u00adkek kar\u00adde\u00ad\u015fim\u00adle be\u00adnim i\u00e7in de, bir za\u00adman\u00adlar ya\u00adtak oda\u00ads\u0131 olan k\u00fc\u00ad\u00e7\u00fck oda\u00adya iki kat\u00adl\u0131 bir ran\u00adza, ca\u00adm\u0131n ke\u00adna\u00adr\u0131\u00adna da bir ma\u00adsa yer\u00adle\u015f\u00adtir\u00admi\u015f\u00adti. Es\u00adki evi\u00admiz\u00adden kal\u00adma \u00fc\u00e7\u00adl\u00fc kol\u00adtuk ve es\u00adki otur\u00adma oda\u00ads\u0131n\u00adda\u00adki ma\u00adsa\u00ady\u0131 ve san\u00addal\u00adye\u00adle\u00adri mut\u00adfa\u00ad\u011fa ko\u00adya\u00adrak, ora\u00ady\u0131 da bir otur\u00adma oda\u00ads\u0131\u00adna \u00e7e\u00advir\u00admi\u015f\u00adti.<\/p>\n
\u0130\u015f\u00adte an\u00adnem\u00adle Mer\u00adyem Tey\u00adze\u00adnin mut\u00adfak\u00adta\u00adki kol\u00adtuk\u00adta se\u00adre\u00adser\u00adpe otur\u00adduk\u00adla\u00adr\u0131, g\u00fc\u00adl\u00fc\u00ad\u015f\u00fcp e\u011fle\u015ftikleri, k\u00fc\u00ad\u00e7\u00fc\u00adc\u00fck bir k\u0131z\u00adken hep ara\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adna ka\u00adt\u0131l\u00admak, b\u00fc\u00ady\u00fc\u00add\u00fc\u00ad\u011f\u00fcm\u00adde ise ka\u00e7\u00admak is\u00adte\u00addi\u00ad\u011fim an\u00adlar\u00addan bi\u00adriy\u00addi. Her yaz mem\u00adle\u00adket\u00adten ki\u00adlo\u00adlar\u00adca ge\u00adti\u00adri\u00adlen \u00e7e\u00adrez\u00adler, \u00e7ay ve an\u00adne\u00admin \u00e7ok na\u00addi\u00adren i\u00e7\u00adti\u00ad\u011fi si\u00adga\u00adra ek\u00adsik ol\u00admaz\u00add\u0131 mu\u00adhab\u00adbet\u00adle\u00adrin\u00adde. Ocak\u00adta al\u00adt\u0131 k\u0131\u00ads\u0131k \u00e7ay\u00addan\u00adl\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131n \u00e7\u0131\u00adkar\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131 o bu\u00adhar\u00adl\u0131 m\u0131\u00adr\u0131l\u00adt\u0131, bur\u00adnu\u00admu ya\u00adla\u00adyan dem\u00adli ko\u00adku\u00adsu; an\u00adne\u00admin bir y\u0131l \u00f6n\u00adce yi\u00adne mem\u00adle\u00adket\u00adten ge\u00adtir\u00addi\u00ad\u011fi in\u00adce bel\u00adli bar\u00addak\u00adlar\u00adda\u00adki kan k\u0131r\u00adm\u0131\u00adz\u0131\u00ads\u0131 \u00e7ay; \u00e7\u0131\u00adt\u0131r \u00e7\u0131\u00adt\u0131r \u00e7e\u00adkir\u00addek ses\u00adle\u00adri ara\u00ads\u0131n\u00addan al\u00ad\u00e7a\u00adl\u0131p y\u00fck\u00adse\u00adlen mu\u00adhab\u00adbet\u00adle\u00adri…<\/p>\n
An\u00adnem ya fark et\u00adme\u00admi\u015f\u00adti be\u00adnim ma\u00adsa\u00adda a\u00e7\u0131k ki\u00adta\u00adb\u0131n ba\u00ad\u015f\u0131n\u00adda ken\u00addi\u00adle\u00adri\u00adni din\u00adle\u00addi\u00ad\u011fi\u00admi ya da bel\u00adki ar\u00adt\u0131k on\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 din\u00adle\u00adye\u00adcek ya\u015f\u00adta ol\u00addu\u00ad\u011fu\u00admu d\u00fc\u00ad\u015f\u00fc\u00adn\u00fc\u00adyor\u00addu. S\u00f6z bu ev\u00adden ve \u00f6len ka\u00add\u0131n\u00addan a\u00e7\u0131l\u00adm\u0131\u015f\u00adt\u0131.<\/p>\n
Mer\u00adyem Tey\u00adze 1961 y\u0131\u00adl\u0131n\u00adda ko\u00adca\u00ads\u0131n\u00addan da \u00f6n\u00adce ge\u00adlen\u00adler\u00adden\u00addi. \u00c7ok iyi Al\u00adman\u00adca ko\u00adnu\u00ad\u015fu\u00adyor\u00addu. Ko\u00adca\u00ads\u0131, y\u0131l\u00adlar \u00f6n\u00adce gen\u00e7 ya\u015f\u00adta kan\u00adser\u00adden \u00f6l\u00adm\u00fc\u015f, o da bir da\u00adha ev\u00adlen\u00adme\u00admi\u015f\u00adti. Be\u00adnim Me\u00admo Abi de\u00addi\u00ad\u011fim o\u011f\u00adlu\u00adnu ve bi\u00adri T\u00fcr\u00adki\u00adye\u2019de ev\u00adle\u00adnip ora\u00adda ka\u00adlan, di\u00ad\u011fe\u00adri de \u2013o s\u00f6\u00adz\u00fc\u00adn\u00fc pek et\u00adme\u00adse de her\u00adkes bi\u00adli\u00adyor\u00addu\u2013 bir Al\u00adman\u00adla ya\u00ad\u015fa\u00adyan k\u0131z\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adn\u0131 tek ba\u00ad\u015f\u0131\u00adna ye\u00adti\u015f\u00adtir\u00admi\u015f\u00adti. Hep can\u00adl\u0131, ne\u00ad\u015fe\u00adli, ha\u00adri\u00adka hi\u00adk\u00e2\u00adye\u00adler an\u00adla\u00adtan, ak pak, \u015fi\u015f\u00adman\u00adca bir ka\u00add\u0131n\u00add\u0131.<\/p>\n
\u201cBi\u00adli\u00adyor mu\u00adsun, \u0130kin\u00adci D\u00fcn\u00adya Sa\u00adva\u00ad\u015f\u0131\u2019nda Rus as\u00adker\u00adle\u00adri ilk de\u00adfa \u015feh\u00adre gir\u00addik\u00adle\u00adrin\u00adde, bu\u00adra\u00adda sa\u00adde\u00adce ka\u00add\u0131n\u00adlar, ya\u015f\u00adl\u0131\u00adlar ve \u00e7o\u00adcuk\u00adlar var\u00adm\u0131\u015f. Eli si\u00adlah tu\u00adtan er\u00adkek\u00adle\u00adrin hep\u00adsi cep\u00adhe\u00addey\u00admi\u015f. Es\u00adki\u00adden bu apart\u00adman\u00adda otu\u00adran Po\u00adlon\u00adya\u00adl\u0131 ya\u015f\u00adl\u0131 bir ka\u00add\u0131n an\u00adlat\u00adm\u0131\u015f\u00adt\u0131 ba\u00adna. De\u00addi\u00ad\u011fi\u00adne g\u00f6\u00adre as\u00adker\u00adler ay\u00adlar\u00adca ka\u00add\u0131n\u00adla\u00adra te\u00adca\u00adv\u00fcz edip on\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 k\u00f6\u00adle gi\u00adbi \u00e7a\u00adl\u0131\u015f\u00adt\u0131r\u00adm\u0131\u015f\u00adlar. Si\u00adzin bu da\u00adire\u00adde otur\u00admu\u015f olan o ya\u015f\u00adl\u0131 ka\u00add\u0131\u00adn\u0131n iki \u00e7o\u00adcu\u00ad\u011fu da bom\u00adba\u00adlar\u00addan \u00f6l\u00adm\u00fc\u015f. Ko\u00adca\u00ads\u0131 da cep\u00adhe\u00adden ge\u00adri d\u00f6n\u00adme\u00admi\u015f. Ara\u00addan ne\u00adre\u00addey\u00adse k\u0131rk y\u0131l ge\u00e7\u00adme\u00adsi\u00adne ra\u011f\u00admen, ka\u00add\u0131n \u00f6le\u00adne ka\u00addar kim\u00adse\u00adle\u00adre ka\u00adp\u0131\u00ady\u0131 a\u00e7\u00adma\u00add\u0131. Be\u00adnim Meh\u00admet o za\u00adman\u00adlar k\u00fc\u00ad\u00e7\u00fc\u00adc\u00fck \u00e7o\u00adcuk\u00adtu, ara\u00adda bir al\u0131\u015f\u00adve\u00adri\u015f \u00e7an\u00adta\u00ads\u0131\u00adn\u0131 yu\u00adka\u00adr\u0131 \u00e7\u0131\u00adka\u00adr\u0131r\u00add\u0131 da, onun\u00adla bi\u00adle kor\u00adka\u00adrak, \u00e7e\u00adki\u00adne\u00adrek ko\u00adnu\u00ad\u015fur\u00addu. On be\u015f y\u0131l\u00adl\u0131k kom\u00ad\u015fum\u00addu, ama sa\u00adde\u00adce bir ke\u00adre da\u00advet et\u00adti be\u00adni evi\u00adne. Meh\u00admet\u2019in yar\u00add\u0131m\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adna kar\u00ad\u015f\u0131 bir te\u00ad\u015fek\u00adk\u00fcr\u00add\u00fc bu her\u00adhal\u00adde. Meh\u00admet\u2019le be\u00adra\u00adber git\u00admi\u015f\u00adtim. \u00c7o\u00adcuk i\u00e7in bir di\u00adlim ek\u00adme\u00ad\u011fin ara\u00ads\u0131\u00adna pey\u00adnir koy\u00admu\u015f, pey\u00adni\u00adrin al\u00adt\u0131\u00adna da, aha par\u00admak ka\u00adl\u0131n\u00adl\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131n\u00adda te\u00adre\u00adya\u00ad\u011f\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00adm\u00fc\u015f\u00adt\u00fc. \u00c7o\u00adcu\u00ad\u011fun mi\u00adde\u00adsi kalk\u00adm\u0131\u015f\u00adt\u0131. \u201cAhh,\u201d di\u00adye s\u00f6y\u00adlen\u00admi\u015f\u00adti ka\u00add\u0131n\u00adca\u00ad\u011f\u0131z, \u201csa\u00adva\u015f\u00adtan son\u00adra siz ha\u00adli\u00admi\u00adzi g\u00f6r\u00adsey\u00addi\u00adniz, y\u0131l\u00adlar\u00adca bir di\u00adlim ek\u00admek \u00fcze\u00adri\u00adne s\u00fc\u00adr\u00fcl\u00adm\u00fc\u015f bu ka\u00adl\u0131n\u00adl\u0131k\u00adta te\u00adre\u00adya\u00ad\u011f\u0131 ha\u00adya\u00adliy\u00adle ya\u00ad\u015fa\u00add\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ney\u00adse, Rus\u00adlar \u015feh\u00adre gi\u00adrip, t\u00fcm ka\u00adp\u0131\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131p tek tek kur\u00adca\u00adlar\u00adken, bi\u00adzim bu ka\u00add\u0131n haf\u00adta\u00adlar\u00adca ya\u00adta\u00ad\u011f\u0131\u00adn\u0131n al\u00adt\u0131n\u00adda sak\u00adlan\u00adm\u0131\u015f. Po\u00adlon\u00adya\u00adl\u0131 ka\u00add\u0131\u00adn\u0131n de\u00addi\u00ad\u011fi\u00adne g\u00f6\u00adre, da\u00adha \u00e7ok k\u00f6y\u00adler\u00adden k\u0131r\u00adlar\u00addan ge\u00adlen gen\u00e7 Rus as\u00adker\u00adle\u00adri \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn\u00adc\u00fc kat\u00adtan son\u00adra\u00adki kat\u00adla\u00adra \u00e7\u0131k\u00adma\u00adya \u00e7e\u00adki\u00adnir\u00adler\u00admi\u015f. Her\u00adhal\u00adde al\u0131\u015f\u00adk\u0131n de\u00ad\u011fil\u00adler\u00admi\u015f o ka\u00addar y\u00fck\u00adsek\u00adle\u00adre t\u0131r\u00adman\u00adma\u00adya. Bir de, mer\u00addi\u00adve\u00adnin bir k\u0131s\u00adm\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6k\u00adm\u00fc\u015f\u00adm\u00fc\u015f, na\u00ads\u0131l ol\u00adsa kim\u00adse yok\u00adtur di\u00adye yak\u00adla\u00ad\u015fan ol\u00adma\u00adm\u0131\u015f bu ka\u00adta.\u201d<\/p>\n
An\u00adnem, il\u00adgiy\u00adle din\u00adli\u00adyor ve ara\u00adda bir \u201cVah vah, bak sen,\u201d gi\u00adbi yo\u00adrum\u00adlar\u00adda bu\u00adlu\u00adnu\u00adyor\u00addu.<\/p>\n
\u201cBak\u00adma sen \u015fim\u00addi zen\u00adgin ol\u00adduk\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adna, \u00e7ok fu\u00adka\u00adra\u00adl\u0131k \u00e7ek\u00admi\u015f bu mil\u00adlet. De\u00addik\u00adle\u00adri\u00adne g\u00f6\u00adre, ay\u00adlar\u00adca hi\u00e7 su ak\u00adma\u00adm\u0131\u015f, yi\u00adye\u00adcek de\u00adsen hak ge\u00adti\u00adre. Za\u00adval\u00adl\u0131 ka\u00add\u0131n bu\u00adra\u00adda na\u00ads\u0131l haf\u00adta\u00adlar\u00adca a\u00e7 su\u00adsuz da\u00adya\u00adna\u00adbil\u00admi\u015f\u00adse? Za\u00adten y\u0131l\u00adlar\u00adca kor\u00adka\u00adrak bak\u00adt\u0131 ka\u00adp\u0131 ara\u00adl\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131n\u00addan biz\u00adle\u00adre. Bu es\u00adki\u00adler ya\u00adban\u00adc\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00adma\u00adn\u0131, \u0131rk\u00ad\u00e7\u0131\u00add\u0131r\u00adlar di\u00adyor\u00adlar ya, ben\u00adce bu ka\u00add\u0131\u00adn\u0131n\u00adki d\u00fc\u015f\u00adman\u00adl\u0131k fi\u00adlan de\u00ad\u011fil\u00addi, bi\u00adri ani\u00adden evi\u00adne gi\u00adrer di\u00adye kor\u00adku\u00adyor\u00addu. Ga\u00adri\u00adbim, son za\u00adman\u00adlar\u00adda da d\u0131\u00ad\u015fa\u00adr\u0131\u00adya hi\u00e7 \u00e7\u0131k\u00admaz ol\u00admu\u015f\u00adtu.\u201d<\/p>\n
Da\u00adya\u00adna\u00adma\u00ady\u0131p at\u0131l\u00adm\u0131\u015f\u00adt\u0131m s\u00f6\u00adze. Sert ve kin do\u00adlu ba\u00adk\u0131\u015f\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 kar\u00ad\u015f\u0131\u00ads\u0131n\u00adda her de\u00adfa\u00ads\u0131n\u00adda t\u00fcy\u00adle\u00adrim di\u00adken di\u00adken olan, her an sa\u00advun\u00adma ha\u00adlin\u00adde, bas\u00adto\u00adnu\u00adnu in\u00adsa\u00adn\u0131n y\u00fc\u00adz\u00fc\u00adne vu\u00adra\u00adcak\u00adm\u0131\u015f gi\u00adbi dim\u00addik tu\u00adtan es\u00adki apart\u00adma\u00adn\u0131\u00adm\u0131z\u00adda\u00adki ya\u015f\u00adl\u0131 bir ka\u00add\u0131n ak\u00adl\u0131\u00adma gel\u00admi\u015f\u00adti. \u201cAn\u00adne, bi\u00adzim es\u00adki kom\u00ad\u015fu\u00admuz var\u00add\u0131 ya, Ba\u00adyan Schif\u00adfer, ha\u00adni be\u00adyaz bir k\u00f6\u00adpe\u00ad\u011fi var\u00add\u0131. O da \u00f6y\u00adley\u00addi. Ba\u00adna hep T\u00fcr\u00adken\u00adg\u00f6r* di\u00adyor\u00addu.\u201d<\/p>\n
An\u00adnem be\u00adni ye\u00adni fark et\u00admi\u015f\u00ad\u00e7e\u00adsi\u00adne, k\u0131z sen bi\u00adzi mi din\u00adli\u00adyor\u00adsun di\u00adye \u00e7\u0131\u00adk\u0131\u015f\u00adm\u0131\u015f ve he\u00admen oda\u00adma git\u00adme\u00admi is\u00adte\u00admi\u015f\u00adti.<\/p>\n
D\u0131\u00ad\u015fa\u00adr\u0131\u00adda \u015f\u0131\u00adr\u0131l \u015f\u0131\u00adr\u0131l d\u00f6\u00adk\u00fc\u00adlen ya\u011f\u00admur, i\u00e7er\u00adide fut\u00adbol sey\u00adret\u00adme ba\u00adha\u00adne\u00adsiy\u00adle ba\u00adba\u00adm\u0131n diz\u00adle\u00adri di\u00adbi\u00adne uza\u00adn\u0131p uyuk\u00adla\u00adyan kar\u00adde\u00ad\u015fim. He\u00adn\u00fcz ait de\u00ad\u011fil\u00admi\u00ad\u015fim de\u00admek ye\u00adti\u015f\u00adkin\u00adle\u00adrin d\u00fcn\u00adya\u00ads\u0131\u00adna. Oda\u00adm\u0131\u00adza ge\u00ad\u00e7ip yi\u00adne va\u00adli\u00adzi\u00admi ku\u00adca\u00ad\u011f\u0131\u00adma al\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131m\u00adda, ke\u015f\u00adke ka\u00add\u0131\u00adn\u0131n e\u015f\u00adya\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adn\u0131 at\u00adma\u00adm\u0131\u015f ol\u00adsay\u00add\u0131m di\u00adye i\u00e7 ge\u00ad\u00e7ir\u00admi\u015f\u00adtim ilk kez. Ka\u00add\u0131n bel\u00adki de Rus\u00adlar\u00addan na\u00ads\u0131l sak\u00adlan\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131\u00adn\u0131 yaz\u00adm\u0131\u015f\u00adt\u0131 o def\u00adter\u00adle\u00adre.<\/p>\n
Y\u0131l\u00adlar ge\u00e7\u00adtik\u00ad\u00e7e unut\u00adtuk es\u00adki\u00adden bu ev\u00adde otur\u00admu\u015f olan ka\u00add\u0131\u00adn\u0131. Ne Mer\u00adyem Tey\u00adze ne an\u00adnem; bir da\u00adha kim\u00adse an\u00adma\u00add\u0131 onu. Be\u00adnim ise ara\u00adda bir, y\u0131l\u00adlar ge\u00e7\u00adtik\u00ad\u00e7e i\u00e7i\u00adne koy\u00addu\u00ad\u011fum, i\u00e7in\u00adde\u00adki\u00adle\u00adrin s\u00fc\u00adrek\u00adli de\u00ad\u011fi\u015f\u00adti\u00ad\u011fi san\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131\u00adm\u0131 a\u00e7\u00adt\u0131k\u00ad\u00e7a ak\u00adl\u0131\u00adma ge\u00adli\u00adyor\u00addu. Ama za\u00adman\u00adla ben de unut\u00adtum. Ay\u00adna\u00adl\u0131 ve \u00e7ek\u00adme\u00adce\u00adli bir do\u00adla\u00adb\u0131n oda\u00adm\u0131\u00adza gir\u00adme\u00adsin\u00adden son\u00adray\u00adsa, b\u00fcs\u00adb\u00fc\u00adt\u00fcn \u00e7\u0131k\u00adt\u0131 git\u00adti ha\u00adya\u00adt\u0131m\u00addan, t\u0131p\u00adk\u0131 b\u00fc\u00ady\u00fc\u00ads\u00fc\u00adn\u00fc yi\u00adti\u00adren san\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131m gi\u00adbi. Ben b\u00fc\u00ady\u00fc\u00add\u00fck\u00ad\u00e7e o es\u00adki\u00adyen, y\u0131p\u00adra\u00adnan, ki\u00admi za\u00adman yer\u00adle\u00adri ba\u015f\u00adka e\u015f\u00adya\u00adlar\u00adla dol\u00addu\u00adru\u00adlan s\u0131\u00adra\u00addan bir nes\u00adne ol\u00admu\u015f, do\u00adla\u00adb\u0131n \u00fcs\u00adt\u00fcn\u00adde es\u00adki bir va\u00adliz ha\u00adli\u00adne gel\u00admi\u015f\u00adti. Evin\u00adde \u00f6l\u00fc bu\u00adlun\u00admu\u015f ya\u015f\u00adl\u0131 bir ka\u00add\u0131\u00adna da\u00adir ha\u00adber\u00adler de ar\u00adt\u0131k bir \u015fey ifa\u00adde et\u00adme\u00adme\u00adye ba\u015f\u00adla\u00adm\u0131\u015f\u00adt\u0131. Ha\u00adyat h\u0131z\u00adla y\u00fcz de\u00ad\u011fi\u015f\u00adti\u00adri\u00adyor\u00addu. B\u00fc\u00ady\u00fc\u00adyor ve d\u0131\u015f d\u00fcn\u00adya\u00adya kar\u00ad\u015f\u0131 olan he\u00adye\u00adcan\u00adla\u00adr\u0131m, me\u00adrak\u00adla\u00adr\u0131m de\u00ad\u011fi\u00ad\u015fi\u00adyor; il\u00adgi\u00adle\u00adrim ba\u015f\u00adka \u015fe\u00adkil\u00adler\u00adde ken\u00addi\u00adme, ken\u00addi be\u00adde\u00adni\u00adme y\u00f6\u00adne\u00adli\u00adyor\u00addu de\u00admek. Ya da, o ka\u00add\u0131\u00adna duy\u00addu\u00ad\u011fum ac\u0131\u00adma duy\u00adgu\u00adsu, \u00e7ok son\u00adra\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 ta\u00adrih\u00adten \u00f6\u011f\u00adren\u00addik\u00adle\u00adri\u00admin kar\u00ad\u015f\u0131\u00ads\u0131n\u00adda s\u00f6\u00adn\u00fcp git\u00admi\u015f\u00adti. Hi\u00e7 bi\u00adlin\u00e7\u00adli d\u00fc\u00ad\u015f\u00fcn\u00adme\u00admi\u015f\u00adtim onun ta\u00adrih\u00adte\u00adki ro\u00adl\u00fc\u00adn\u00fcn ne ol\u00addu\u00ad\u011fu\u00adnu, onun k\u00fc\u00ad\u00e7\u00fck bi\u00adrey\u00adsel he\u00adze\u00adya\u00adn\u0131\u00adn\u0131n da kit\u00adle\u00adle\u00adrin he\u00adze\u00adya\u00adn\u0131 i\u00e7in\u00adde bir pa\u00ady\u0131 ol\u00addu\u00ad\u011fu\u00adnu, bu\u00adnun ko\u00adca bir k\u0131\u00ady\u0131\u00adma ma\u00adl ol\u00admu\u015f ola\u00adbi\u00adle\u00adce\u00ad\u011fi\u00adni. Ka\u00adp\u0131 ara\u00adl\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131n\u00adda bir ya\u00adban\u00adc\u0131\u00adya ba\u00adkar\u00adken kor\u00adkuy\u00adla de\u00ad\u011fil de, bel\u00adki de or\u00adtak bir su\u00ad\u00e7un, o su\u00ad\u00e7a ne\u00adden olan, ken\u00addi b\u00fc\u00ady\u00fc\u00ads\u00fc i\u00e7i\u00adne ki\u00adlit\u00adlen\u00admi\u015f ko\u00adca bir d\u00fcn\u00adya g\u00f6\u00adr\u00fc\u00ad\u015f\u00fc\u00adn\u00fc tem\u00adsil eden i\u011f\u00adren\u00admey\u00adle do\u00adlu ol\u00addu\u00ad\u011fu\u00adnu da d\u00fc\u00ad\u015f\u00fcn\u00adme\u00admi\u015f\u00adtim. Me\u00ad\u011fer en ya\u00adk\u0131n a\u011f\u0131z\u00addan an\u00adla\u00adt\u0131\u00adlan\u00adm\u0131\u015f, en ya\u00adk\u0131n\u00adda g\u00f6\u00adr\u00fc\u00adlen\u00admi\u015f inan\u00add\u0131\u00adr\u0131\u00adc\u0131 olan.<\/p>\n
Ma\u00adsal\u00adla\u00adra olan inan\u00adc\u0131\u00adn\u0131 yi\u00adtir\u00admi\u015f, ama h\u00e2\u00adl\u00e2 i\u00e7in i\u00e7in san\u00add\u0131k\u00adlar\u00adda, ka\u00adpa\u00adl\u0131 ku\u00adtu\u00adlar\u00adda, lam\u00adba\u00adlar\u00adda sak\u00adl\u0131 si\u00adhir\u00adli bir d\u00fcn\u00adya\u00addan ko\u00adpa\u00adma\u00adm\u0131\u015f se\u00adkiz ya\u00ad\u015f\u0131n\u00adda\u00adki bir \u00e7o\u00adcu\u00ad\u011fa ne\u00adler va\u00adat et\u00admez\u00admi\u015f ki ze\u00admi\u00adni ko\u00adyu kah\u00adveren\u00adgi, ke\u00adnar\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 in\u00adce\u00adcik h\u00e2\u00adki sar\u00adma\u00ad\u015f\u0131k\u00adlar\u00adla \u00e7ev\u00adri\u00adli, i\u00e7i ye\u00ad\u015fil as\u00adtar\u00adl\u0131 k\u00fc\u00ad\u00e7\u00fc\u00adc\u00fck bir va\u00adliz. T\u00fcm iyi\u00adlik\u00adler ve k\u00f6\u00adt\u00fc\u00adl\u00fck\u00adler h\u00e2\u00adl\u00e2 b\u00fc\u00ady\u00fc\u00adler\u00adle or\u00adta\u00adya \u00e7\u0131\u00adk\u0131p kay\u00adbo\u00adlur\u00adken, ta\u00adri\u00adhin ken\u00addi\u00adsi de sa\u00adde\u00adce ve sa\u00adde\u00adce upu\u00adzun, k\u0131\u00adv\u0131r k\u0131\u00adv\u0131r sa\u00e7\u00adl\u0131 g\u00fc\u00adzel pren\u00adses\u00adle\u00adrin iyi kalp\u00adle\u00adrin\u00adde ve ko\u00adca\u00adman si\u00adyah ben\u00adli, uzun bu\u00adrun\u00adlu eci\u015f b\u00fc\u00adc\u00fc\u015f b\u00fc\u00ady\u00fc\u00adc\u00fc\u00adle\u00adrin si\u00adhir\u00adle\u00adrin\u00adde sak\u00adl\u0131y\u00adm\u0131\u015f he\u00adn\u00fcz.<\/p>\n
K\u00fc\u00ad\u00e7\u00fck va\u00adliz\u00adle olan ili\u015f\u00adki\u00admi on be\u015f on al\u00adt\u0131 ya\u015f\u00adla\u00adr\u0131m\u00adday\u00adken t\u00fcm\u00adden bi\u00adtir\u00admi\u015f ol\u00adma\u00adl\u0131\u00ady\u0131m. \u0130lk eli\u00adme ge\u00e7\u00adti\u00ad\u011fi g\u00fc\u00adn\u00fc, \u00fcze\u00adrim\u00adde ya\u00adrat\u00adt\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131 duy\u00adgu\u00adyu bu ka\u00addar ber\u00adrak ha\u00adt\u0131r\u00adlar\u00adken, son\u00adra\u00adki ak\u0131\u00adbe\u00adti\u00adni bil\u00admi\u00adyor ol\u00admam \u00e7ok il\u00adgin\u00e7. \u015eim\u00addi bir m\u00fc\u00adze ha\u00adli\u00adne ge\u00adti\u00adril\u00admi\u015f ve ken\u00adtin bom\u00adba\u00adlan\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131 1940 ile 1945 y\u0131l\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 ara\u00ads\u0131n\u00adda\u00adki ya\u00ad\u015fa\u00adm\u0131 bel\u00adge\u00adle\u00adyen her t\u00fcr\u00adl\u00fc nes\u00adney\u00adle do\u00adlu bu s\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131\u00adna\u00ad\u011fa na\u00ads\u0131l gel\u00addi\u00ad\u011fi\u00adni ise hi\u00e7 bil\u00admi\u00adyo\u00adrum.<\/p>\n
Uzun boy\u00adlu sa\u00adr\u0131\u00ad\u015f\u0131n reh\u00adber, bom\u00adba\u00adlan\u00adm\u0131\u015f bir lo\u00adkan\u00adta\u00addan ar\u00adta ka\u00adlan bar\u00addak\u00adla\u00adr\u0131n; bu\u00adra\u00adda do\u011f\u00admu\u015f ve n\u00fc\u00adfus k\u00e2\u00ad\u011f\u0131t\u00adla\u00adr\u0131n\u00adda do\u00ad\u011fum ye\u00adri ola\u00adrak bu s\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131\u00adna\u00ad\u011f\u0131n ad\u0131 ya\u00adz\u0131\u00adl\u0131, \u015fim\u00addi alt\u00adm\u0131\u015f\u00adla\u00adr\u0131n\u00adda\u00adki in\u00adsan\u00adla\u00adr\u0131n hi\u00adk\u00e2\u00adye\u00adle\u00adri\u00adni b\u0131\u00adrak\u00adm\u0131\u015f, ha\u00adva\u00adlan\u00add\u0131r\u00adma sis\u00adte\u00admi\u00adne ge\u00e7\u00admi\u015f\u00adti.<\/p>\n
\u201cBu de\u00adrin\u00adlik\u00adte\u00adki s\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131\u00adnak y\u00fcz ki\u00ad\u015fi\u00adlik olup en faz\u00adla iki sa\u00adat\u00adlik bir ok\u00adsi\u00adje\u00adne sa\u00adhip\u00adti. Ama sa\u00adva\u00ad\u015f\u0131n son g\u00fcn\u00adle\u00adrin\u00adde be\u015f y\u00fcz\u00adden faz\u00adla ki\u00ad\u015fi sa\u00adat\u00adler\u00adce bu\u00adra\u00adda ne\u00adfes\u00adle\u00adri\u00adni tut\u00admak zo\u00adrun\u00adda kal\u00adm\u0131\u015f\u00adt\u0131r.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ama ben din\u00adle\u00adye\u00admi\u00adyo\u00adrum. Y\u0131l\u00adlar\u00add\u0131r, ni\u00adce ara\u015f\u00adt\u0131r\u00adma\u00adya, ni\u00adce \u00f6y\u00adk\u00fc\u00adye, ni\u00adce fil\u00adme, ni\u00adce bel\u00adge\u00adse\u00adlin si\u00adyah-be\u00adyaz ka\u00adre\u00adle\u00adri\u00adne ko\u00adnu ol\u00admu\u015f ka\u00adran\u00adl\u0131k bir d\u00f6\u00adne\u00admi bir kez de ba\u015f\u00adka cep\u00adhe\u00adden g\u00f6\u00adre\u00adbil\u00adme me\u00adra\u00adk\u0131y\u00adla dal\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131m bu s\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131\u00adnak\u00adta, bu\u00adla bu\u00adla ken\u00addi \u00e7o\u00adcuk\u00adlu\u00ad\u011fu\u00admu bul\u00admu\u00ad\u015fum. Be\u00adnim\u00adle be\u00adra\u00adber bi\u00adlet al\u0131p bir met\u00adro gi\u00adri\u00ad\u015fin\u00adde\u00adki bu es\u00adki s\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131\u00adna\u00ad\u011fa inen di\u00ad\u011fer yir\u00admi be\u015f ki\u00ad\u015fi\u00adyi unut\u00admu\u015f, ti\u00adpin\u00adden, ren\u00adgin\u00adden hi\u00e7\u00adbir \u015fey kay\u00adbet\u00adme\u00admi\u015f k\u00fc\u00ad\u00e7\u00fck va\u00adli\u00adzim\u00adle ba\u015f ba\u00ad\u015fa kal\u00adm\u0131\u00ad\u015f\u0131m. Mut\u00adfak\u00adta usul usul kay\u00adna\u00adyan \u00e7a\u00ady\u0131n m\u0131\u00adr\u0131l\u00adt\u0131\u00ads\u0131\u00adn\u0131 i\u015fi\u00adti\u00adyor, bu\u00adhar\u00adl\u0131 ko\u00adku\u00adsu\u00adnu al\u0131\u00adyo\u00adrum.<\/p>\n
L\u00fct\u00adfen do\u00adkun\u00adma\u00ady\u0131n di\u00adyen reh\u00adbe\u00adrin se\u00adsiy\u00adle ken\u00addi\u00adme ge\u00adli\u00adyo\u00adrum. \u201cBiz y\u0131l\u00adlar\u00add\u0131r bu nes\u00adne\u00adle\u00adri top\u00adla\u00admak i\u00e7in \u00e7ok u\u011f\u00adra\u015f\u00adt\u0131k. Hep\u00adsi \u00f6nem\u00adli ta\u00adri\u00adhi do\u00adk\u00fc\u00adman\u00adlar\u00add\u0131r.\u201d<\/p>\n
Par\u00admak\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adm\u0131 \u00fcze\u00adrin\u00adde gez\u00addi\u00adrip, a\u00e7\u00adma\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131m hal\u00adde klik se\u00adsi\u00adni i\u015fit\u00adti\u00ad\u011fim de\u00admir ki\u00adlit\u00adten h\u0131z\u00adla eli\u00admi \u00e7e\u00adki\u00adyo\u00adrum.<\/p>\n
\u201cNe\u00addir bu va\u00adliz\u00adler? Me\u00adse\u00adla bu\u00adnun kim\u00adle\u00adre ait ol\u00addu\u00ad\u011fu\u00adnu bi\u00adli\u00adyor mu\u00adsu\u00adnuz? \u201c<\/p>\n
\u201cHa\u00ady\u0131r, bu\u00adra\u00adda\u00adki va\u00adliz\u00adle\u00adrin ba\u00adz\u0131\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 ta\u00advan ara\u00adla\u00adr\u0131n\u00addan bu\u00adlu\u00adnup \u00e7\u00f6\u00adpe at\u0131l\u00adm\u0131\u015f ya da es\u00adki\u00adci\u00adle\u00adre ve\u00adril\u00admi\u015f, \u00e7o\u00ad\u011fu da s\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131\u00adnak\u00adla\u00adr\u0131n i\u00e7in\u00adde on\u00adlar\u00adla bir\u00adlik\u00adte bu\u00adg\u00fc\u00adne kal\u00adm\u0131\u015f. Dik\u00adkat eder\u00adse\u00adniz, bo\u00adyut\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 son de\u00adre\u00adce k\u00fc\u00ad\u00e7\u00fck. Sa\u00adva\u00ad\u015f\u0131n son y\u0131l\u00adla\u00adr\u0131n\u00adda bom\u00adba alarm\u00adla\u00adr\u0131y\u00adla te\u00adtik\u00adte ya\u00ad\u015fa\u00adyan in\u00adsan\u00adlar, za\u00adru\u00adri e\u015f\u00adya\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adn\u0131 s\u00fc\u00adrek\u00adli bun\u00adla\u00adr\u0131n i\u00e7i\u00adne ko\u00adyup g\u00fcn\u00add\u00fcz i\u015fe git\u00adtik\u00adle\u00adrin\u00adde de yan\u00adla\u00adr\u0131n\u00adda ta\u00ad\u015f\u0131r\u00adlar\u00adm\u0131\u015f. Si\u00adzin do\u00adkun\u00addu\u00ad\u011fu\u00adnuz, dar bir san\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131 an\u00add\u0131\u00adran bu va\u00adli\u00adzin \u00f6nem\u00adli bir \u00f6zel\u00adli\u00ad\u011fi var. De\u00adniz a\u015f\u0131\u00adr\u0131 yol\u00adcu\u00adluk\u00adlar i\u00e7in me\u00ad\u015fe\u00adden ya\u00adp\u0131l\u00adm\u0131\u015f, 1920\u2019ler\u00adden kal\u00adma d\u00f6rt\u00adl\u00fc bir va\u00adliz ta\u00adk\u0131\u00adm\u0131\u00adn\u0131n en k\u00fc\u00ad\u00e7\u00fc\u00ad\u011f\u00fc. \u00c7o\u00adcuk\u00adlar ya da ka\u00add\u0131n\u00adla\u00adr\u0131n \u00f6zel k\u00fc\u00ad\u00e7\u00fck e\u015f\u00adya\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 i\u00e7in son de\u00adre\u00adce el\u00adve\u00adri\u015f\u00adli. Ho\u015f bir g\u00f6\u00adr\u00fcn\u00adt\u00fc\u00ads\u00fc var de\u00ad\u011fil mi? Son de\u00adre\u00adce \u00f6zel bir an\u00adti\u00adka par\u00ad\u00e7a\u00ads\u0131 as\u00adl\u0131n\u00adda. Gen\u00e7 bir ka\u00add\u0131\u00adna ait ol\u00adma\u00ads\u0131 ge\u00adrek. Bir es\u00adki\u00adci\u00adden, bir Arap d\u00fck\u00adk\u00e2\u00adn\u0131y\u00add\u0131 sa\u00adn\u0131\u00adr\u0131m, ben ke\u015f\u00adfet\u00adtim. D\u00fck\u00adk\u00e2\u00adn\u0131n sa\u00adhi\u00adbi y\u0131l\u00adlar \u00f6n\u00adce da\u00adire\u00adsin\u00adde yal\u00adn\u0131z ba\u00ad\u015f\u0131\u00adna \u00f6len ya\u015f\u00adl\u0131 bir ka\u00add\u0131\u00adna ait ol\u00addu\u00ad\u011fu\u00adnu bi\u00adli\u00adyor\u00addu sa\u00adde\u00adce.\u201d<\/p>\n
Reh\u00adber \u00e7er\u00ad\u00e7e\u00adve\u00adlen\u00admi\u015f, alt\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adna nu\u00adma\u00adra\u00adlar ve\u00adril\u00admi\u015f re\u00adsim\u00adler, fo\u00adto\u011f\u00adraf\u00adlar, ev\u00adrak ve ga\u00adze\u00adte ku\u00adp\u00fcr\u00adle\u00adriy\u00adle do\u00adlu du\u00adva\u00adr\u0131 g\u00f6s\u00adte\u00adre\u00adrek, \u201cBa\u00adk\u0131n, 136 nu\u00adma\u00adra\u00adl\u0131 \u00e7er\u00ad\u00e7e\u00adve\u00adnin i\u00e7in\u00adde\u00adki \u015fu bej men\u00addil de onun i\u00e7in\u00adden \u00e7\u0131k\u00adt\u0131.\u201d<\/p>\n
Du\u00adva\u00adra yak\u00adla\u00ad\u015f\u0131\u00adyo\u00adrum. He\u00admen ta\u00adn\u0131\u00adyo\u00adrum men\u00addi\u00adli\u00admi. Es\u00adki dan\u00adte\u00adliy\u00adle, ilk \u00f6\u011f\u00adren\u00addi\u00ad\u011fim ve \u00fcze\u00adri\u00adne i\u015f\u00adle\u00admi\u015f ol\u00addu\u00ad\u011fum o g\u00fcl mo\u00adti\u00adfi, ye\u00ad\u015fil yap\u00adrak\u00ad\u00e7\u0131k\u00adla\u00adr\u0131y\u00adla bi\u00adraz sol\u00admu\u015f. G\u00fcl \u00f6r\u00adne\u00ad\u011fi\u00adni \u00e7\u0131\u00adkar\u00admak\u00adtan de\u00ad\u011fil de, en \u00e7ok k\u00fc\u00ad\u00e7\u00fck bir par\u00ad\u00e7a ka\u00adna\u00advi\u00ad\u00e7e\u00adyi men\u00addi\u00adlin \u00fcze\u00adri\u00adne tu\u00adtu\u015f\u00adtur\u00admak\u00adta, mo\u00adtif bit\u00adtik\u00adten son\u00adra da ka\u00adna\u00advi\u00ad\u00e7e\u00adnin ip\u00ad\u00e7ik\u00adle\u00adri\u00adni \u00e7e\u00adkip \u00e7\u0131\u00adkar\u00admak\u00adta zor\u00adlan\u00adm\u0131\u015f\u00adt\u0131m.<\/p>\n
\u201cBu va\u00adli\u00adzin ve men\u00addi\u00adlin ay\u00adn\u0131 d\u00f6\u00adne\u00adme ve ki\u00ad\u015fi\u00adye ait ol\u00addu\u00ad\u011fu\u00adnu sa\u00adn\u0131\u00adyo\u00adrum. Men\u00addi\u00adlin k\u00f6\u00ad\u015fe\u00adsin\u00adde\u00adki g\u00fc\u00adl\u00fc an\u00add\u0131\u00adran mo\u00adti\u00adfi g\u00f6\u00adr\u00fc\u00adyor mu\u00adsu\u00adnuz? Men\u00addil, ku\u00adma\u00ad\u015f\u0131 ve et\u00adra\u00adf\u0131n\u00adda\u00adki dan\u00adte\u00adli iti\u00adba\u00adriy\u00adle, 1930\u2019la\u00adra ve\u00adya 40\u2019la\u00adra ait\u00adken, \u00fcze\u00adrin\u00adde\u00adki mo\u00adtif da\u00adha ya\u00adk\u0131n za\u00adman\u00adlar\u00adda i\u015f\u00adlen\u00admi\u015f.\u201d Adam bir s\u00fc\u00adre sus\u00adtu. \u201c\u00dcs\u00adte\u00adlik bu men\u00addi\u00adle sa\u00adr\u0131l\u00adm\u0131\u015f bir\u00adka\u00e7 ta\u00adne de mek\u00adtup var\u00add\u0131. Bu\u00adnu \u00e7ok iyi ha\u00adt\u0131r\u00adl\u0131\u00adyo\u00adrum, zi\u00adra men\u00addil mek\u00adtup\u00adla\u00adra sa\u00adr\u0131l\u00adm\u0131\u015f, \u00f6y\u00adle\u00adce va\u00adli\u00adzin as\u00adta\u00adr\u0131\u00adn\u0131n al\u00adt\u0131\u00adna ko\u00adnul\u00admu\u015f\u00adtu. Sak\u00adlan\u00adm\u0131\u015f\u00adt\u0131 de\u00adsem da\u00adha do\u011f\u00adru olur, \u00e7\u00fcn\u00adk\u00fc as\u00adta\u00adr\u0131n di\u00adki\u015f\u00adle\u00adri, san\u00adki sa\u00adde\u00adce mek\u00adtup\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 sak\u00adla\u00admak i\u00e7in iti\u00adnay\u00adla s\u00f6\u00adk\u00fcl\u00adm\u00fc\u015f.\u201d<\/p>\n
Mek\u00adtup mu?<\/p>\n
Ken\u00addi ken\u00addi\u00adme ko\u00adnu\u015f\u00adtu\u00ad\u011fu\u00admu san\u00adm\u0131\u015f\u00adt\u0131m. Ama ses\u00adli d\u00fc\u00ad\u015f\u00fcn\u00adm\u00fc\u015f ol\u00adma\u00adl\u0131\u00ady\u0131m ki, reh\u00adber de\u00advam edi\u00adyor.<\/p>\n
\u201cEvet. Sa\u00adn\u0131\u00adr\u0131m a\u015fk mek\u00adtup\u00adla\u00adr\u0131y\u00add\u0131. Ama \u00e7an\u00adta\u00adn\u0131n ve d\u00f6\u00adne\u00admin ta\u00adri\u00adhiy\u00adle il\u00adgi\u00adsi yok\u00adtu. At\u00adt\u0131k on\u00adla\u00adr\u0131.\u201d<\/p>\n
At\u00adm\u0131\u015f\u00adlar on\u00adla\u00adr\u0131. Pe\u00adki, unut\u00admak\u00adla at\u00admak ara\u00ads\u0131n\u00adda fark var m\u0131 aca\u00adba?<\/p>\n
Ge\u00e7\u00admi\u015f s\u00fc\u00adz\u00fc\u00adl\u00fcp ay\u00add\u0131n\u00adla\u00adn\u0131\u00adyor bir\u00adden. Et\u00adra\u00adf\u0131m\u00adda\u00adki nes\u00adne\u00adle\u00adri da\u00adha az \u00f6nem\u00adse\u00adyip, de\u00ad\u011fi\u00ad\u015fen ken\u00addi be\u00adde\u00adni\u00adme y\u00f6\u00adnel\u00addi\u00ad\u011fim o san\u00adc\u0131\u00adl\u0131, kor\u00adku\u00adlu ama haz do\u00adlu ilk ke\u00ad\u015fif\u00adle\u00adrim. Y\u0131l\u00adlar y\u0131l\u00adlar son\u00adra ak\u00adl\u0131\u00adma ge\u00adlip de ara\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131m hal\u00adde bir t\u00fcr\u00adl\u00fc bu\u00adla\u00adma\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131m, on be\u015f ya\u00ad\u015f\u0131m\u00adday\u00adken Peter\u2019in yaz\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131 a\u015fk mek\u00adtup\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adn\u0131 de\u00admek bu\u00adra\u00adya sak\u00adla\u00adm\u0131\u00ad\u015f\u0131m? Her\u00adkes\u00adten k\u00f6\u015fe bucak sak\u00adla\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131m, an\u00adnem g\u00f6\u00adre\u00adcek di\u00adye kor\u00adkuy\u00adla \u00fcr\u00adper\u00addi\u00ad\u011fim, ama at\u00admak da is\u00adte\u00adme\u00addi\u00ad\u011fim i\u00e7in, son \u00e7a\u00adre ye\u00ad\u015fil as\u00adta\u00adr\u0131\u00adn\u0131 ke\u00adnar\u00adla\u00adr\u0131n\u00addan s\u00f6\u00adk\u00fcp va\u00adli\u00adzin al\u00adt\u0131\u00adna sok\u00adtu\u00ad\u011fum ilk g\u00f6z a\u011f\u00adr\u0131m, ilk a\u015fk mek\u00adtup\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adm\u0131 unu\u00adtup git\u00admi\u00ad\u015fim.<\/p>\n
Ba\u00adk\u0131\u00adyor\u00adlar m\u0131 ba\u00adna? \u00dcze\u00adrin\u00adden ne\u00adre\u00addey\u00adse yir\u00admi y\u0131l ge\u00e7\u00admi\u015f, kor\u00adku do\u00adlu hum\u00adma\u00adl\u0131 ilk a\u015fk se\u00adr\u00fc\u00adve\u00adni\u00admi bir kez da\u00adha an\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131\u00adm\u0131 an\u00adla\u00adm\u0131\u015f\u00adlar m\u0131\u00add\u0131r? \u00c7o\u00adcuk\u00adlu\u00ad\u011fa, y\u0131l\u00adlar \u00f6n\u00adce\u00adsi\u00adne git\u00admi\u015f ol\u00adma\u00adn\u0131n h\u00fcz\u00adn\u00fc ve co\u015f\u00adku\u00adsuy\u00adla a\u011f\u00adla\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131m\u0131? \u00c7an\u00adtam\u00addan \u00e7\u0131\u00adkar\u00add\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131m k\u00e2\u00ad\u011f\u0131t men\u00addil\u00adle g\u00f6z\u00adle\u00adri\u00admi ku\u00adru\u00adtup et\u00adra\u00adf\u0131\u00adma ba\u00adk\u0131\u00adn\u0131\u00adyo\u00adrum. Grup, ye\u00adni do\u011f\u00admu\u015f bir be\u00adbek i\u00e7in ya\u00adp\u0131l\u00adm\u0131\u015f gaz mas\u00adke\u00adli be\u00ad\u015fi\u00ad\u011fin et\u00adra\u00adf\u0131\u00adna top\u00adlan\u00adm\u0131\u015f. Y\u00fcz ifa\u00adde\u00adle\u00adri mah\u00adcup ve dur\u00adgun. \u015eu men\u00addi\u00adlin ve \u00e7an\u00adta\u00adn\u0131n bir za\u00adman\u00adlar ba\u00adna da ait ol\u00admu\u015f ol\u00addu\u00ad\u011fu\u00adnu s\u00f6y\u00adle\u00adsem, ha\u00adyal k\u0131\u00adr\u0131k\u00adl\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131\u00adna u\u011f\u00adra\u00adt\u0131r m\u0131\u00ady\u0131m bu nes\u00adne\u00adle\u00adrin i\u00e7in\u00adde kim bi\u00adlir bel\u00adki de ken\u00addi ka\u00adran\u00adl\u0131k, san\u00adc\u0131\u00adl\u0131, a\u00e7\u0131\u00adl\u0131p ko\u00adnu\u00ad\u015ful\u00adduk\u00ad\u00e7a deh\u00ad\u015fe\u00adtin fa\u00adil\u00adle\u00adri ola\u00adbi\u00adle\u00adcek\u00adle\u00adri ama o deh\u00ad\u015fe\u00adte su\u00e7 or\u00adta\u00ad\u011f\u0131 ol\u00admak\u00adtan kur\u00adtul\u00adma\u00adya muh\u00adta\u00e7 ta\u00adrih\u00adle\u00adri\u00adni ara\u00adyan in\u00adsan\u00adla\u00adr\u0131? Ama kim\u00adse il\u00adgi\u00adlen\u00admi\u00adyor; ne be\u00adnim\u00adle ne de \u015fu ace\u00admi par\u00admak\u00adlar\u00adla i\u015f\u00adle\u00addi\u00ad\u011fim sol\u00admu\u015f ilk ka\u00adna\u00advi\u00ad\u00e7e i\u015f\u00adle\u00adme \u00f6r\u00adne\u00ad\u011fi pem\u00adbe g\u00fc\u00adl\u00fcm\u00adle.<\/p>\n
Dar mer\u00addi\u00adven\u00adle\u00adrin\u00adden s\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131\u00adna\u00ad\u011f\u0131n d\u0131\u00ad\u015f\u0131\u00adna, g\u00fcn \u0131\u015f\u0131\u00ad\u011f\u0131\u00adna \u00e7\u0131\u00adk\u0131\u00adyo\u00adruz. Y\u00fcz\u00adler sol\u00adgun, g\u00f6z\u00adler du\u00adman\u00adl\u0131. D\u00fc\u00ad\u015f\u00fcn\u00adce\u00adle\u00adre dal\u00adm\u0131\u015f in\u00adsan\u00adlar d\u00f6rt bir ya\u00adna da\u00ad\u011f\u0131\u00adl\u0131\u00adyor\u00adlar. Ba\u00adz\u0131\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adn\u0131n, bir m\u00fc\u00adze ge\u00adzi\u00adsiy\u00addi ve bit\u00adti i\u015f\u00adte der gi\u00adbi ra\u00adhat so\u00adluk al\u0131\u015f\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 dik\u00adkat \u00e7e\u00adki\u00adyor. Ben\u00adse h\u00e2\u00adl\u00e2 \u015fa\u015f\u00adk\u0131n, ne\u00adre\u00adye gi\u00adde\u00adce\u00ad\u011fi\u00admi bil\u00admi\u00adyo\u00adrum. Ama bir bi\u00adlet ba\u00ad\u015f\u0131 de\u00ad\u011fil mi, hi\u00e7\u00adbir an\u00adla\u00adm\u0131 kal\u00adma\u00adya\u00adna dek da\u00adha bin\u00adler\u00adce kez bu\u00adra\u00adya ge\u00adlip ken\u00addi ge\u00e7\u00admi\u00ad\u015fi\u00adme ye\u00adni\u00adden yol\u00adcu\u00adlu\u00ad\u011fa \u00e7\u0131\u00adka\u00adbi\u00adli\u00adrim.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Da\u00adra\u00adc\u0131k mer\u00addi\u00adven\u00adler\u00adden iner\u00adken, bir za\u00adman\u00adlar ku\u00adlak\u00adla\u00adr\u0131 sa\u00ad\u011f\u0131r eden si\u00adren ses\u00adle\u00adriy\u00adle ken\u00addi\u00adle\u00adri\u00adni bu ya\u00adr\u0131 ka\u00adran\u00adl\u0131k dar ko\u00adri\u00addo\u00adra atan in\u00adsan\u00adla\u00adr\u0131n kor\u00adku\u00adla\u00adr\u0131\u00adn\u0131 his\u00adse\u00addi\u00adyo\u00adrum bir an. Ama sa\u00adde\u00adce bir an. Mer\u00addi\u00adven du\u00adva\u00adr\u0131\u00adna as\u0131\u00adl\u0131 alt\u00adm\u0131\u015f y\u0131l \u00f6n\u00adce\u00adsi\u00adne ait \u201cPss, d\u00fc\u015f\u00adman ara\u00adm\u0131z\u00adda!\u201d pro\u00adpa\u00adgan\u00adda afi\u00ad\u015fiy\u00adle ak\u00adl\u0131m ka\u00adr\u0131\u00ad\u015f\u0131\u00adyor, duy\u00adgu\u00adla\u00adr\u0131m ta\u00adraf de\u00ad\u011fi\u015f\u00adti\u00adri\u00adyor. Boy boy, renk renk gaz mas\u00adke\u00adle\u00adri, \u00e7\u0131p\u00adlak ve s\u0131s\u00adka be\u00adden\u00adle\u00adri sa\u00advun\u00adma\u00ads\u0131z b\u0131\u00adra\u00adkan […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"featured_media":5806,"template":"","categories":[28,10],"class_list":["post-3400","stsp_text","type-stsp_text","status-publish","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-issue-3","category-prosa"],"yoast_head":"\n